Hey all

2011-04-11T22:09:00.001+08:00

Nobody understands how much I long to be able to run again. ): ): ):

For you are the Lord who heals me, I want to be able to run again soon!

2011-04-09T22:12:00.005+08:00

Today seemed like such a long day on the whole. I woke up super super early to go watch Qc's POP with his dad and Yu Wei. The weather was freaking hot, so I guess by the time we're taking photos I was sweating and sticky and my hair was horrible ew.

And oh fml lor, my ankle is still swollen! ): In fact, I look like I have no ankle. It's just one whole swollen part straight down. And part of it is bruising already, which hurts when I walk. It has been 3 days, and I aim to recover within at most 10 days. I want to play!!!!! Guess I'm mising at least 4 matches. ): Hopefully when I recover I can run faster than before!

Oh well, at least I met qc today... Though it's way too short. But then again, I can nv get enough of him. Maybe we can meet more next week. Anyway, most of the POP was quite boring, cos it was like watching ants, cant see anyone at all. But generally very neat and impressive since they marched 24km through the night and can still parade under the hot sun. After POP we took some photos and went to eat brunch. Initially we were at this Chinese restaurant, but we decided to leave after a while cos the service was soooo bad, and we ended up eating BK. Then we took a taxi with his dad back to his house, where I met his mum for the first time. But we didnt talk much, cos she seems quite sick today. At least I talked a lot to his dad. I hope he has a good impression of me. And haha his bro is so cute!! ^^ Qc says he acts funnily in front of me. After that I just went home to read Murakami, which was really good. And I took a nap and had really weird dreams... >< Okay I shall end here with:

SUPER CUTE!!!! :D :D

2011-03-27T11:15:00.002+08:00

我想你想得快疯了

Sometimes I wonder

2011-03-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

How much do you actually love me?

Edit: Today, after much thinking, I realise how much you do. It's just that you express it in a different way. Sorry. I love you too.

Quote: "Everything's gonna be okay. Maybe not now, not today, but eventually.

2011-03-13T11:07:00.000+08:00

A story (:

2011-03-07T20:58:00.003+08:00

There was a man, who took a certain woman as his wife. In time to come, she bore him three children. This woman, however, frequently prostituted herself. She did so because she was looking for love. Yet, she was never fulfilled.

Throughout this time, her husband did not fail to provide for her. He was grieved, but he never stopped loving her.

In time to come, the husband realised that by continuing to provide for his wife, he was encouraging her habit, and preventing her from seeing the consequences of her actions. He stopped providing for her, but he never stopped loving her.

The wife ended up being sold by a lover into slavery. It was her husband who bought her over, and brought her home. He said to her, "You will be with me for a long time. No more will you prostitute yourself. But I will live with you."

This is a true story, adapted from the bible. The husband's name is Hosea, and he was a prophet. In fact, God actually told him to marry someone whom he knew would be unfaithful to him. God wanted to demonstrate a point-

The husband represents God, and the wife represents people like us. When God created us, he meant for there to be a loving and faithful relationship between him and us.

However, we turn away from God and choose to live our lives the way we want it, just like how the woman was unfaithful to her husband. This is called sin.

Yet, God's love is unconditional and unchanging. Even though we are unfaithful, He was never stopped loving us. Yet, he lets us face some of the consequences of our sin, which we can see in all the eveil and violence in the world today.

However, God does not abandon us in the end, but made a way for us to return. Just as Hosea bought his wife back, so God has bought us back by paying the price for our sin. He did this by sending His Son Jesus to take the punishment of our sins on our behalf- this punishment is death- that we may be restored to a loving relationship with God, that we may be given new life and enjoy eternal life in God's presence.

To you, my friend, who is reading my blog, this is my message for you: God loves us. You know, although I've read this story several times, it never fails to touch me each time I read it. And I really really want to learn how to love like Him, even towards my enemies. Hope this story blesses you! :D

Life is so sad?

2011-03-02T21:59:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wish life could have a pause button, so that we can pause to catch a breather. I dont know why I am so useless. All I want now is you.

And I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me. Oh, how He loves us so

2011-02-27T01:38:00.002+08:00

A new song we learnt at church today, I love it. Today's service was so so impactful. :D

Valentines 2011 ♥

2011-02-14T19:57:00.006+08:00

I guess this is supposed to be an exciting day for all couples, but I'm lonely on Valentines this year cos QC is in NS. It feels really horrible looking at other couples, especially your friends. >< But I thank God for my friends who showered me with love, knowing that I'm feeling down. I got lots of presentsssss :D

Yoke Ting ♥

Mrs Lim, Wann Qin, May Shuen, Marie, Valentia ♥

Amanda Chia ♥

Wann Qin ♥

Prisci ♥

Khoo Ee ♥

Jessica ♥

Other than these ppl, Mei Na also baked the whole class sth, but I ate it and forgot to take a picture.

And here are some photos I camwhored with the present I gave my secret valentine (Fiona). So act cute hahahahaha.

Thanks everyone for the presents and the love! I'm so gonna grow fat heee. Also, thanks jiani and yeehueh for the sweet smses. Thanks Kevin and Brandon for spending an afternoon doing nth with me so I wont be so emo. Yay I love my friends. Looking forward to belated Valentines on Sunday and your call later! ♥ ♥ ♥

My mind is screwed

2011-02-13T00:20:00.001+08:00

Why?

2011-02-07T22:25:00.002+08:00

I dont know why I felt so sad when u hung up, like this emo pang just swept over me. Maybe it's just pms. But I suddenly felt so lost, so lonely, so empty. Am I too dependent on you? Nowadays I feel like my whole life's meaning and purpose is only revolving around you. And when I think about my life, I feel so depressed all of a sudden. I dont know why. I dont know why. I dont know why.

Lord give me strength.

The Lord's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in him.

2011-01-04T22:20:00.025+08:00

Hihi HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Haha a bit late, but no one reads my blog anyway. Just wanna do a sum up for 2010. Gotta thank quite a few people, and I really thank God for placing these people in my life. ♥ And also gonna set a few new year resolutions along the way just so that I can refer back to this post now and then. ^^

♥ ZOO/KC! JIE HONG! JUN WEI! SHIUH SHENG! KAI JIE! REBECCA! VIVIAN! BRANDON! UNCLE WALLA! CHEE CHIN! LINUS! MOUSEY! (Eh I not very close to the other kc volunteers ><) I realised I dont have much photos with u guys. Anyway I hope I'll be able to go for kc more at the start of next year when I wont have so many other things on sat mornings. Now I feel quite ps that I actually got the YWCA membership card... >< Brandon, I entrust u with the responsibility of reminding me every week haha. Hmm as for zoo, hihi how long has it been since we had an outing? ): We're all such busy ppl tsk tsk. Must meet up and camwhore lah! :D (LOL I feel like I am talking to myself since no one is gonna read this but nvm I think brandon reads sometimes right hahaha)

♥ TOUCH! KAREN! ESTHER! SYLVIA! PEI JIA! TING SHAN! YSABEL! JESSICA! RACHEL! SARAH! SHERYL! EE HSIEN! YAN TING! XIAO YOU! SENIORS! Haha I am sure no one from this list will ever read this. But I am thankful to everyone for being so tolerant with me and all the mistakes I keep making. Thanks for guiding me and answering my qtns when I have doubts! I will work hard this year and I'm sure we'll do well as a team! :D

♥ CHURCH AND SYFC PPL! SISTER CAROL! SARAH! GRACE! DAVID! JAMES! HOANG! JOSEPH! BOON JIN! RONICA! VERA! PRISCI! JIANG YIN! No photos ): But u guys have really been a great help in my walk with God. :D Thanks for all the constant encouragement, always willing to lend a listening ear and praying for me. ♥

♥ HIGHFIVE! PROGRAMMES! SHI LUN! MAY SHUEN! SHENG HUI! Okay I shall not name everyone because thats impossible. Anyway, without everyone's help, my job as Ohana treasurer wouldnt have been so easy. And to my hype it up members, esp jun wei, I am sorry for being a lousy PD ): All in all, I've learnt so much from highfivers! Being in highfive helped a lot in sustaining my interest in volunteering and of course, I gained a group of awesome friends! :D Programmes outing again soon please!

♥ SQUADMATES! SHARON! SHAO TING! SIN YING! GENG YU! WAI TIEM! PRISCI! JIANG YIN! JERALDINE! ANGIE! LAURA! KAI YAN! I am glad for those mornings I spent talking to yall about my troubles and studying for promos tgt. I feel so comforted knowing there'll always be ppl here for me and our bond is just soooo amazing. Love you guys! :D Can we mahjong soon? ^^

♥ 10S7G! CLIQUE! MARIE! WANN QIN! VALENTIA! I think our class is kinda cool. :D We're a really helpful bunch, esp for hw hahaha. Am proud to be your welfare rep! And to my greatest clique, thanks for being there for me, though I know I must be quite annoying sometimes since I keep talking about qc lol. 10S7G, lets work hard and get As for A levels tgt! :D :D

♥ YOU! Haha I dont know what to say. Just really really feel sooooo blessed. Thanks for everything! ♥ ♥ :D I love you.

What a great year! Haha oops I didnt think of new year resolutions. Hmm but I want to continue drawing strength and hope from God and His covenant this year. :D To end off, Deuteronomy 7:9, "Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments." :D

The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble

2010-12-26T23:03:00.003+08:00

Guess my situation now can indeed be considered "times of trouble".

Seriously, I am very very upset and I dont understand why he did that. Does he really think we can survive without her? The house has its pillars; and without either, the house will collapse. Yes, we are old enough to take care of ourselves. But what about the wound in the heart? Will it ever heal?

I dont understand how adults think at all. Sometimes I feel that our thinking is so much more sensible and logical. Is it because of all the worries in life or what? Will I grow to be like that?

Qc is so right, being young is the best. But right now, the future seems bleak.

2010-12-06T23:46:00.002+08:00

I cant stop laughing at this. Cute ttm! ♥

People I miss

2010-11-26T11:23:00.007+08:00

I want outings!!!

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see

2010-11-25T23:02:00.004+08:00

Today's training was just ): ): ): I'm kinda disappointed in myself. Actually I think I spend a lot of time thinking about touch and I also stay back to practice more and stuff, but I still suck. I dont really know why also. Maybe it's just a mentality thing, like Eugene said. Or maybe, touch is just not the sport for me.

I dropped ball sooooo many times today I think everyone got pissed with me. I dont know why I have this bad habit of catching the ball the wrong way, it either bounces off me or I always try to catch above my head? Either ways, always fail. The feeling just sucks. It's like OH OH OH ONE MORE THEN SCORE!!!!!!! Then drop ball. Wth. It's too late to change now. How?

And communication is always a problem. I always dont know what my teammates want to do and they also dont know what I want to do. Then when we're at the line, we try a move. The defenders get on side, and everything fails. Resetting rarely happens, free play just messes up.

Many times we tried, many times we failed. Even though we try to encourage each other, perhaps deep in out hearts there is just that sth there to put us down, sth to drain our hope, sth to make us lose faith. And maybe thats what is really stopping us.

The bible tells us in Hebrew 11:1, "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see". Come on, let's regain that faith and confidence!

I hope this is what we'll say after our match! :D

His love will never fail me

2010-11-15T00:15:00.003+08:00

Haha actually I dont know whats the point of my blog I am like posting once or twice a month lol. I'm so bored without you here... Wahhh it's suddenly so late I should sleep haha I forgot what I wanted to blog abt!

You're amazing just the way you are

2010-10-25T21:42:00.003+08:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

This song really reminds me of the card you gave me during our first month. I miss those days when you had lots and lots of time for me, but I know the reason you're busy and working so hard is for us. Until now I think it's still hard to believe this is not a dream, cos everything just seems too good to be true. The small things you tell me now and then means a lot to me, like I was so touched when you said "you are the one that made me smile so much". In fact, I feel truly happy when I make others happy. Okay okay I am lazy to blog alrdy. You know what I wanna say lah hahaha. Thanks for everything!!!!!!! ♥

Promos is over and life's good.

Rejoice!

2010-10-08T21:55:00.002+08:00

Oh man promos are finally over. I dont know why I am posting actually. Just wanted to say I MISS NYSJ!!!! ):

But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord's love is with those who fear Him

2010-09-17T22:44:00.005+08:00

May the mind of Christ, my Savior,
Live in me from day to day,
By His love and power controlling
All I do and say.

May the Word of God dwell richly
In my heart from hour to hour,
So that all may see I triumph
Only through His power.

May the peace of God my Father
Rule my life in everything,
That I may be calm to comfort
Sick and sorrowing.

May the love of Jesus fill me
As the waters fill the sea;
Him exalting, self abasing,
This is victory.

May I run the race before me,
Strong and brave to face the foe,
Looking only unto Jesus
As I onward go.

May His beauty rest upon me,
As I seek the lost to win,
And may they forget the channel,
Seeing only Him.

This is quite a nice song. :) Veronica shared this with me today. I'm so glad that even through tough times, God has placed leaders and friends around me who nv gave up on me. Thanks for the encouragement! :D My birthday this year kinda made me reflect on a lot of things, but most of the time I felt more tensed up than anything else, cos of promos. Sigh, I wonder how I will survive through next year. I guess I'll just have to do my bestest. :D What another tiring week, shall study a bit before I sleep! :D

To you:

Perceive new things

2010-08-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

Cute!

Confidence not based on earthly kingdoms

2010-08-28T11:45:00.004+08:00

Just some photos. The week's finally finally over. It has been another week of trying to study but too tired to do anything. I dont know why I am feeling so tired actually, like after I finished my hw I wont feel like doing anything so I will slack around then sleep. Maybe it's just my mindset and I GOTTA CHANGE IT LIKE NOW!!!!! Cos there is like only 5 weeks left, no time to even freak out alrdy, just have to chiong chiong chiong chiong chiong! Bye! Wont be back for long I guess. Time for lots and lots of Starbucks! I ♥ Starbucks haha.

I fear

2010-08-22T21:28:00.002+08:00

Yes this is what I am doing on the eve of the econs lecture test - Staring at the photo hahahaha. Gosh, I am so sick of econs. I hope I'll do okay. Sighs, no confidence though. How to do well in a subject that I have no interest in? On the other hand, 夏祭り with QC, Shao Ting, Wai Tiem, and Edric was really fun. We didnt do much, but I guess it was a chance for all of us to have a break. Maybe looking at the photo will motivate me. Okay okay GOGOGO!

I am fearfully and wonderfully made

2010-08-19T21:30:00.002+08:00

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

Thats a song I nv get sick of. Today was..........

A new chapter, with many more to go ♥

2010-08-18T21:02:00.005+08:00

Thanks for everything! ♥

♥ My motivation

2010-08-12T20:44:00.005+08:00

QC, YOU HATE COMPUTER AND YOU REALLY ENJOY DOING HOMEWORK!

Hahaha. Yeah I need that too.

54 days to doom, 65 days to freedom

2010-08-11T21:39:00.005+08:00

Too many random thoughts on my mind these days. Somehow as promos get nearer, I seem to feel like slacking more (and blogging more too). Why??? This is kinda weird. And I am still LAGGING for all my tutorials and lectures. I mean, I just cant fully understand even if I pay attention, so I always need to reread all my notes. I wonder if everyone else does that too. >< I feel screwed. It's about time to unscrew myself cos there's just less than 8 weeks left! OMG right. JIAYOU EVERYONE LETS CHIONG ALL THE WAY!!!!!

And I know I have to work hard for you.

You're waiting for a train; a train that will take you far far away.

2010-08-07T00:19:00.005+08:00

Haha I loved all the quotes on this blog, esp the ones about love. They just make me go "AWWWWW..." Today was so awesome, I havent felt so relaxed for a while. :D National day celebrations was as per normal, but I do love singing national day songs! :D After that went to Cine to watch SALT with Wann Qin, Marie, Valentia, and QC! We took neoprints yay! Then me and Wann Qin and QC walked around for a bit and bought some food. Then I went to Tampines and shopped for a nice pin with QC. More pins better, then Karen wont scold me during training. >< It's so fun shopping with QC hahahahaha. Okay so after the well deserved break, now it's time to work hard again! For myself, and for you. ♥ Oh yeah, the song below has nice lyrics, go listen! :D

Over the years, I've grown to be a part of you
You've cared for me and opened the way to a happy and beautiful life
You make me feel warm and safe and give me hope for brighter days

Chorus:
It's the little things that we share, the love and joy that's in the air
The children's laughter everywhere, and all our favourite things

Over the years, I've grown accustomed to your ways
And no matter where I'll be, it warms my heart to know that
You're always here for me

( Repeat Chorus )

Over the years, I've learnt we share a destiny
And no matter how good others may be
No one cares like you care for me
Cause deep down inside I feel you're a part of me
My Singapore, the place that I call my Home

2010-07-25T22:29:00.002+08:00

Maybe I cant cram anything else in my head cos you're taking up too much space. It's driving me crazy.

2010-06-22T23:22:00.003+08:00

辛苦了一天,好疲惫...受不了了...满脑袋只想着你.你在哪里?

There can be miracles when you believe

2010-06-03T21:50:00.001+08:00

(Miriam) Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

(Tzipporah) In this time of fear
When prayer so often proved in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
(Miriam) now I'm standing here
(Tzipporah) With heart so full I can't explain
(Both) Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill (It's hard to kill)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

(Child) Ashira l'adonai ki gaoh ga-ah
Ashira l'adonai ki gaoh ga-ah
Mi chamocha baelim adonai
Mi kamocha nedar bakodesh

(Children) Nachita v'chas-d'cha am zu ga-alta
Nachita v'chas-d'cha am zu ga-alta
Ashira ashira ashira

(People) Ashira l'adonai ki gaoh ga-ah
Ashira l'adonai ki gaoh ga-ah
Mi chamocha baelim adonai
Mi kamocha nedar bakodesh

Nachita v'chas-d'cha am zu ga-alta
Nachita v'chas-d'cha am zu ga-alta
Ashira ashira ashira

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill

(Miriam) It's hard to kill

(People) Who knows what miracles
You can achieve

(Tzipporah) You can achieve

(People) When you believe
Somehow you will
Now you will

(Miriam & Tzipporah) You will when you believe

I rmb we used to sing this during music lessons in lower sec. It's a really nice and touching song isnt it. Hmm, I guess many of you would know, recently a lot of things happened in my family. It's getting really serious. I'm sorry I've been in such a bad mood. ): And I'm also sorry for not telling u guys anything. A lot of u have been asking me what happened, but I feel that I'm not ready to talk abt it yet... Sorry... Dont worry abt me though, I will be strong. And I know God is with me. (: Yupp, and I also told qc abt it. I hope things will be fine soon though. There's still my SLs and my studies to think abt. For now, I shall take a break. Full force tmr!!! :D

The fruit of the spirit

2010-05-13T21:30:00.005+08:00

Today I reached home. Finally ate dinner at home. Finally there's not really any hw to rush. Finally, I can sleep early! Yay, rejoice! I shall take a break and maybe read some Newsweek haha.

And I realised I cant stop falling deeper and deeper into the love dance.

2010-05-03T11:51:00.002+08:00

OMG the good old days... ♥♥♥

Faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

2010-05-02T23:40:00.002+08:00

Dont u think the verse is inspiring? Quoted from James 2:17, which was shared during sermon ytd. I was very touched during service ytd :D

I'm sorry for ppl who still read my blog. Yes, it's damn dead. I have been my slacking time elsewhere... Haha. Anyway this update is to advertise for my project, HYPE IT UP'10 and also some updates abt my CIP involvement bah.

If you're interested in acting/directing/scriptwriting/video editing/being a cameraman/ treasurer/secretary/logistics ic, PLEASE HELP! :D Hype It Up'10 is a project aimed to raise awareness for ADHD (attention deficit hyperactive disorder) through a skit. Commitment from June to Aug. Dont worry if u may have exam periods along the way, cos I am a student and I understand too! (But of course your exams cant be the whole 3 months right?) Ask me for more details! :D

For Vivant'10, I guess the application has almost ended, and quite a few of my friends were actually very interested YAY. Thanks to all those who applied, see you during tea sessions! :D :D As for kc, I've been trying to go on all sat mornings which I have nth on, which is actually not a lot. And I realised Simran actually feels very attached to me, I shall try to teach her more!

Oh yeah, I promised Aaron I would help to advertise for Project E-HouseCare! If you're interested in CIP, free on Sat mornings, and dont mind working with elderly, do check out http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=113059772053803&ref=ts#!/group.php?gid=113059772053803&v=info&ref=ts or ask me for more details. If u cant make it for some of the sessions it's okay too! Actually I would really wanna help, but I have enough at hand alrdy. It's important to stretch our limits, but overstretching wont do any good too. (:

Hmm if u wanna do CIP but u're interested in none of the above, still can come talk to me, I have loads of reccomendations HAHA!

Thats it. Byebye! :D

Sentences which make (no) sense

2010-04-03T23:50:00.005+08:00

I dont really even know why I am blogging.

1. To you: We may not be as close as we used to be, but I still want give you whatever little support I can give.

2. Sometimes I feel really horrible abt certain things, maybe I need to think more abt everything.

3. Overworked? Not only me.

4. How I wish good dreams come true.

5. And of course, my silly boy <3

Well, 5 sentences should be enough, 5 is a good number. Off to sleep! :D

2010-02-28T10:11:00.007+08:00

HI WORLD, I AM BACK DUE TO POPULAR DEMAND! :D Okay, not very popular, but hey I'm back! :D Arent you guys happy to see me! :D:D:D Eh thanks, whoever who still visit this blog. :D So I guess yall would wanna know hows life? I shall summarize it in a few points:

1. CIP stuff
Hype It Up! '10 and Recruitment'10 has been taking up bulk of the time I am contributing to CIP, though I must say I'm not really doing much for both at the moment.

For Recruitment I guess the Programmes team need to meet up and come up with the whole camp programme soon. DUE 14 MARCH. But at least I am still going for every meeting, but the meetings has been more focused on publi stuff recently.

Hype It Up! is kinda screwed. I think thats cos of me, lousy PD. Life has been a bit hectic, and since no one has been asking me whats happening for Hype It Up!, I kinda just put it aside. But I think IT IS TIME TO REVIVE THE PROJECT! The rest of the stuff is all in the email I sent luh. I really think that each and every one of us should continue giving our best for the project, just like how we've been the first few months. Yeah. ~~The least yall can do is to reply me tyvm.~~ MIF proposal DUE 4 MARCH.

KC I guess I feel quite bad I havent been there since last last last last..... week. Yeah. I think after 20 Jan, which was the last time I posted, I've only been there abt twice. Mainly cos of CNY and sch activities. I wanted to go ytd, but I ended up too sick and tired to. And everyone was telling me I shouldnt go. Yupp, but I think I will still go once in a while...

2. School!
School has been a fun and exciting place! :D Though sometimes a bit tiring, like some of the days we have to chiong hw and after sch still have CCA/meetings.

10S7G!
Awesome awesome class! A bunch of very enthu ppl, I am so glad. :D:D:D I hope we can remain like this throughout the rest of the 2 years in HC. PLAY HARD AND STUDY HARD! :D

Touch Rugby
Haha I havent posted for so long yeah. Kinda in touch rug alrdy. Loving trainings more and more. And getting to know teammates better too. I think I'm slowly improving, though not quite there yet, but I will work hard. JIAYOU EVERYONE! :D

3. QC
Yeah yeah how can I forget this. :D Erm haha I'll leave all the details. Those who wanna know more, come ask me personally bah. :D

Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.

2010-01-20T18:14:00.001+08:00

Woohoo time to blog again. There's no sch today! :D I've been good, spent my time on all the project stuff I needed to do and now I'm done. Haha I realised I've really changed a lot after the hols, somehow I am more insistent on things I believe in and well, I get things done. Asap. Not much procrastination. Isnt that kinda amazing? Or maybe it's just cos I like what I'm doing... Just read Sheng Hui's blog, quote: "Might be too busy, but definitely enjoying everything." I guess that applies for me too. And I dont really feel so busy actually, afterall the school part hasnt even really started. Haha perhaps I should go do the trigo worksheet later, or try to find my binomial theorem notes. (:

Last week I went out 5 times! Without even realising it! :O

110110
Collected O level Higher Chinese results. It's A2, omg. ): But okay, I wasnt too upset abt it cos I thought I should thankful enough, at least I didnt get anything less. I think must be my compo li2 ti2. Hmm after me and rebecca sent Michelle to Woodlands, we ate KFC then went to AMK to meet JW and JH. I cant rmb what we did, basically just talking lah haha. It's good to see the zoo. :D

130110
RJ and HC open house. Went to RJ to support James and also to walk around with Joseph. We met some ppl from Ignyte Sunday; Eng Han, Jie Hui and Jun Ying. Also met Wan Jing and Choon Searn, who was with his classmates. Then at HC I went around with Chiam and Tong Zhen and Ji Inn. Saw Duo Geng, he's coming HC YAY!!! Also saw lots of HC and NY ppl I know. But then I heard a lot of ppl went in the morning so I didnt manage to see them. Oh ya, Alex brought me around haha. So nice of him right! :D After that I waited for Kai Jie's training to end and took bus home with him. (:

140110
Went SYFC office to attend talk on Christian Leadership in the morning. It was quite interesting, about faith. :D Then after that ate lunch within Boon Jin they all before going to HC to tryout touch rugby. It's so cool lah, the seniors contacted us like right after the open house, so efficient. Anyway I really enjoyed it, nv felt so tired in a long while. Though the coach was rather strict, but I guess thats why they always win champs. Oh yeah, I fell down twice cos it was raining and the field was super slippery. >< But other than that, I really like it. :D Saw Clement too haha.

150110
Met QC and went St John HQ cos he needed to buy stuff. Then cos of HQ's inefficiency (the aunty was lunching 0.0), we waited for damn long lol. So we just sat at Subway to talk. After that cos I had nth to do I said I can just go with him to NUSH since he needed to go back, then I was planning to go home after that. Lol somehow I ended up in NUSH and helping him out with CCA fair. Haha I think my CPR is still okay, like after so long YAY. :D Oh I met Jeremias too. He insisted on treating me dinner cos according to them, I helped a lot. (But actually all I did was just CPR lah.) Haha so ended up dinnering with SS, JH, QC, Jeremias before going home.

160110
Woke up at 7am to go KC. Taught Simran. :D Actually studies-wise she is quite okay lor, she did her work super fast. Just that she keeps wanting to play... Hmm I'm thinking of quitting KC soon, since they dont need that much ppl anymore and I have commitments yeah. Will definitely miss the kids, but I guess it's for my good, I really need more time and rest. Hmm after that I went church. Did Grow for the first time, learnt quite a lot. And I must say, many thanks to Sister Carol.

180110
First day of school.Felt weird not alighting at the same bus stop. Met Michelle and went to KAP to have breakfast with 411ners. Haha then we were all late for school, but it was okay, nth much happened to us. There was Eng Diagnostic test (essay), like first period!!! So sad... Thats followed by break before the first Maths lecture, which was on basic algebra. Honestly, it was kinda redundant, but then maybe revising would do us some good. After sch went to AMK with Rebecca to meet JH and JW again. Haha Rebecca is always randomly wanting to meet the zoo lol. After that went TPY to meet Shi Lun, Wan Teng and Sheng Hui for dinner. Shi Lun was like doing his work as a surveyer. It's like $41 for 2 hours. WOW. Haha. If sch hasnt started for me I'd want to do that too. Just a bit of climbing of stairs lol. I need $$$ >< Then was Project Recruitment'10 meeting. Cos I didnt know which comm to join, I ended up being delegated to Programmes Comm. With: Shi Lun, May Shuen, Sheng Hui and Cheong Keat. And thus, DREAM TEAM'10 was born!!! Woohoo I'm really looking forward to working with everyone. Lets make it a blast! :D Reached home at 10+... And my parents were like 0.0 It's the first day of school! Haha but I'm expecting much more of this for the rest of the 2 years...

190110
Morning I went prayer meeting with Michelle. Just did self intro and played 2 Truths 1 Lie before bell rang. Looking forward to doing more on Thurs morning. (: Had Maths again, finished algebra and did a bit of trigo. Then Bio. We played a game, though cos we had to take turns I didnt get to play. But I stayed in the LT throughout and watched this video which I thought was rather interesting. Only if it was a bit louder... It's abt different psychological disorders - Social Anxiety, OCD, Bipolar, Schizophrenia, Depression and Anorexia/Bulimia. There were 10 ppl in the vid, and 5 of them are normal while the other 5 each with a psychological disorder. Then they do several tests on them to determine who has what. Interesting right? Sadly, we didnt get to watch till the end. And the sound quality just spoils everything else. Hmm after Bio I had nth to do until 4pm. So Rebecca and Chiam and I were playing cards. 4pm I went for touch rug training again. Lots of ppl went this time round. It was really fun, I think I'm starting to like it more. And it was less tiring the second time too. Oh yeah, I became darker, just after 2 trainings. YAY. :D

Haha okay I shall end here. That more or less summarised what has been happening. So many things right... There's much more to come. Will be back to post again soon. :D

2010-01-10T21:13:00.003+08:00

Went out thrice this week. But then dont really feel like saying much (lazy), so just some photos. Thurs I went back to ny to see comp training and after that went city hall for Hype it Up! meeting. Fri I went facils bbq in the morning then went for the jc connections event. Sat was Vivant presentation and then church and also dinner meeting with core. I actually thought through a lot of stuff during the meeting and I felt a lot better. (:

Presentation tmr

2010-01-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

I dont know what to say, I'm just damn nervous. Shall sleep early. We can do this ppl!

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.

2010-01-07T11:52:00.001+08:00

本当に疲れた... D: D: D: D: D:

2010-01-03T19:04:00.002+08:00

"He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you." - Bob Marley.

Just saw that on someone's blog, thought it was interesting.

2010-01-03T11:18:00.000+08:00

Okay before I officially start work I shall blog a bit abt this week. I'm so exhausted... ):

Tue we went for Shiny Tornado outing! At Mind's cafe! :D I miss that place! Anyway it was great fun with JASMINE, MARIETTA, HUBERT & KEVIN. Other than playing games, we talked abt lots of stuff too, such as jc life etc. Oh and the forfeits were not that funny lah, not much ppl were paying attention, plus there were also no hunks. How sad haha.

Fri afternoon we went to jw's house to discuss abt Vivant. It was quite a fruitful time I guess, we settled on the ideas and I'm gonna start on the proposal soon.

Sat morning I went KC again. It was New Year party for the kids, strangely everytime I go it's party lol. Anyway I got to know a few of them better - Simran, Eng Hwa and Kai Lin. Hmmmm I am still not sure if I wanna go do that cip though, cos it's soooooo far from my house. :/ I think I might just go once in a while, I dont know...

Then I went to church. Was serving today, but there were no inserts so we sat around to talk for a while. After which, we had fuel in the LT with the whole Z2. I didnt know we had so many ppl omg. Lol and we played a modified version of broken telephone. I must say I feel quite sorry for Gerald cos I couldnt get the keywords, and was taking damn long, so I just anyhow did the actions to the person behind. But then somehow we got 2 of the keywords HAHA. Amazing. Then we had a bit of worship and Sister Gwen talked to us abt the year ahead. How we should lay whatever disappointments and achievements in 2009 before God, how we should conquer spiritual land, and also reminding us abt God's faithfulness. For service the sermon was titled Blessed to be a Blessing. I think the most impt part was the part abt commitment VS surrender. It's sth good to think abt hmmm.

Also, I think this is stupid but...
Things I am worrying abt:
1. Vivant project
2. CCA next year
3. Spiritual stuff
4. Parents
5. Relationships
6. The fact that I am really _ _ _ _ _ _ _.

It is no wonder I feel so tired, and this is only the start... God show me the way.

You've made a difference in my life in 2009 :D

2009-12-31T14:19:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone! 2009 is coming to an end. And I really have to thank many many ppl for this year. Will try to make this as short as possible, so i'm not gonna write much cos no words can express my feelings. (:

♥THE GANG! JIE HONG AKA POS AKA CHICKEN(LOL)! JUN WEI AKA PYB AKA BELOVED SECRETARY AKA ZEBRA AKA UNCLE WITH BOMB BAG! VIVIAN AKA KOALA! REBECCA AKA ELEPHANT! KAI JIE AKA KID AKA RABBIT! SHIUH SHENG! QIAN CHENG AKA QC AKA SQUINTYYYYY AKA PANDA AKA PIG AKA VIDEO CALL PARTNER AKA KEYWORD SMILE AKA MANY OTHER THINGS! :D I am soooooooo glad to know u guys! Even though we havent known each other for very long, I really really like to hang out with yall just crapping and everything! And thanks sooooo much for all the FUN & JOY & LOVEEEEEE! :D

♥BSP CAMP FACILS(active ppl haha)! LU CHANG BROTHER! BO HAN! BIAN HE! CLARENCE! CHEN XU! PIN NING! YEE HUEH! SHAO JUN! CHUN XIAO! SHI LUN! CHIAM MEIMEI! REBECCA! All I wanna say is, more outings! :D Let the facils love live on!!! And I realised we're such camwhores!!! :D
And 一七快乐! Ask me outttttt! :D

♥CIP PPL! FBF(DARREN) & REST OF PROJECT SUNSHINE PPL! Haha fbf it's really fun to teach with u and talk nonsense tgt! YAY. Hope u guys continue to shine for Project Sunshine! :D
VIVANT!09 WITH SPECIAL MENTION TO SHINY TORNADO AND CHILDREN PROJECT GROUP! ZHEN FENG! GERALDINE! ASHTON! KEVIN! JASMINE! HUBERT! MARIETTA! SI YUN! RASYIQAH! CHON KIAT! MAY SHUEN! JUN WEI! YI FANG! DUO GENG! Lets work hard for next year and in future! :D
INSPIRE TUTORING PPL! :D Haha actually not much to say, I dont know the ppl so well. >.<
YWCA KID'S CLUB PPL! LU CHANG! MADDIE! MOUSEY! CHEE CHIN! LINUS! Haha I know this is like quite random, but even though I only went once so far, I really wanna thank u guys for being so fun and hopefully I can join yall in the year to come! :D

♥SQUADMATES! SHARON! SIN YING! GENG YU! SHAO TING! JIANG YIN! ANGIE! JERALDINE! KAI YAN! PRISCI! WAI TIEM! LAURA! To sum up, it has been a year full of everything, happiness, stress, plans, mahjonging etc. We MUST MUST MUST meet up again next year okay! :D

♥CHURCHIES ESP SARAH MY DEAREST SP! SYFC PPL- BOON JIN! MICHELLE! DIY CAMPERS! PRAYER MEETING PPL + MORNING TAWG AT TRACK PPL- SARAH! SHERMAINE! HUI ER! JEWEL! JIANG YIN! JANICE! And many others, thanks for everything. Because of all of u, and all your encouragement, I have been growing in the Lord! Amen! Thank God for all of u! :D

♥CLASSMATES! MICHELLE! REBECCA! SARAH! And many ppl, who taught me the lessons of life; I've grown cos of u guys. :D And to Michelle and Rebecca, recess is no longer boring! Meet up for recess sometimes next year too okay!!! :D

♥DRP(KELVIN)! Still one of the best! :D ♥ARTURO! I wont forget the good times, more to come yeah? :D ♥BRANDON Oh yeah, lets take pictures tgt okay! Mug tgt soon! :D ♥SERENA GYMGYMGYM!!

I LOVE EVERYONE!!!! <3 :D

And there are actually many many other ppl I wanna name but it may take forever. Haha if u think your name should have been mentioned, do tell me, I will edit my post with your name BIG BIG! :D

When you can't feel God, it's not that He has deserted you, it's a test of your faith in Him.

2009-12-29T22:18:00.003+08:00

I love it when the girl groups do the guy groups' songs and vice versa haha. Anyway I am starting to like Heartbeat a lot, a bit lag lol. :D And WOOYOUNG!♥♥

2009-12-27T12:37:00.001+08:00

QC just shared this with me, awesome.

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

2009-12-27T10:20:00.004+08:00

Love this! ♥

Time to blog abt this week. Anyway, I kinda nv recovered from last week cos my phlegm is still there, so my parents have been rather strict with me, and I only went out twice this week CAN U EVEN BELIEVE THAT! 0.0

Haha okay shall just sum up the whole of last weeek (except ytd) in this paragraph. Basically I was damn bored at home, and sometimes I just felt damn horrible cos of the sickness... Haha but then QC and I started to video call on Tues, which was really super super super fun! :D And funny too. xD And he showed me so many stuff in his room, including the birthday present Viv gave him, which was like ultra awesome. If I received such a present I'll seriously cry HAHA. :D And for subsequent days we just started to talk a lot, which was like really fun and entertaining. Though I think both my parents know who he is now. 0.0 My mum saw me talking to him, and she told my dad, and my aunty, and I dont know who else lol. Ah I feel quite bad, but whatever. Haha. And the first time I went out this week was on Wed with the gang, watched Bodyguards and Assassins, which was cool! But quite bloody... I couldnt stand looking at ppl being stabbed again and again and again, like their body is full of holes, then they still fighting?! Anyway, good movie. Can learn abt China's history some more.

Ytd's church. :D It was awesome. I think this Christmas season had just been really awesome, thank God. I really learnt so much. Anyway I brought QC to church ytd! And we reached really early so sat around in Hans to talk. I felt so bad making him sit with the girls all the time cos I was like closer to the girls lah. Like during lunch also. Anyway we had cell communion first, which was nice, cos we got to reflect on the whole year. And I'm glad QC wasnt too freaked out by the tongues. Lunched at SingPost. Then we just sat around outside LT for really long. Talked to Pris and Kim, then QC was talking to David and James also. I was glad, at least he made friends. Then was BigBox service. We had some games, and sang Christmas carols instead of the usual songs. Then Sister Gwen preached abt the real meaning of Christmas, and was talking to ftv abt finding the meaning of life. Even though QC didnt accept Christ, but I think the sermon really touched him, and made him think abt life. Yeah, so maybe I will bring him a few more times in the future. Anyway I thank God for him. Yupp nth much to say alrdy, not in much of a mood to blog now, bye ppl!

For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

2009-12-21T12:30:00.001+08:00

Wow havent been blogging for more than a week again! Anyway, I'm stuck at home today, cos I'm a bit sick and my parents refuse to let me out. ): But well, since I'm at home today, might as well make good use of the time... After blogging maybe I shall read a book or sth. (:

141209
Out with Viv, JH, SS, KJ. I suggested to go bookfair @ Suntec. Cos I needed to buy a planner, and a thumbdrive! In the end after walking in, I felt bored. So we went to Ion. Cos the other time me and Viv saw some very very nice planners there. When we were there we were like 0.0 Each planner costs around $30-$40 I think. !!! Being a poor girl, I couldnt afford that man. So we walked and walked and went to Borders, then to Kinokuniya, where I bought my planner! It's so pretty with golden sides, not that ex, and one page for a day, exactly what I wanted! YAY. :D After buying the planner, we continued walking around, went to Art Friend. And guess what? Lo and behold! We ended up at our fav place! VIVO SKY GARDEN! Lol what a joke. But it was fun lah. (:

151209
Vivant meeting. JW, Chon Kiat, Hubert, Marietta and Duo Geng. Somehow I became PD, actually not that shocking since I've been coordinating stuff. But still, I would say it's a pleasant surprise. (: And I think our grp is the fastest! :D At the end of it, I just hope that all of us will takeaway sth from this experience no matter our project gets approved or not.

161209
Scoop Troupe! Haha it was AWESOME! I brought along KJ, JH, Viv, QC, Brandon, and Arturo. I guess they had a lot of fun too! KJ was like damn high lah. And we kept singing carols as we walked. :D And we made new friends too! Zavier and Yixin. And there were also a lot of girls, but cos our whole clique split up with them sometimes we didnt really get to know them that much. And thank God, we earned $1024 that night for MINDS! :DDD

171209
Squad Christmas party. Damn long nv see squadmates luh!!! All of them looked so different, a few of them cut hair and whatever. YES ANGIE I LOVE YOU COS U SAID I LOOK SKINNIER! Haha joke lah, I dont think I'm any skinnier just that we havent been seeing each other, so ya. After lunch we mahjonged all the way WOOTS. Mahjong is such a fun game! :D Oh yeah I almost forgot the gift exchange part. I got another mug!!! Oh no, I seriously keep getting mugs and I cant finish using them. I mean like, the mugs are really nice and I wanna use them cos it's like they're given to me by ppl I love, but I just cant finish using them! I have been using my current breakfast mug for a few years okay... And I think I'm gonna continue using it as long as it doesnt break. How ah... >< And oh ya, squadmates also gave out stuff they got from overseas. I am quite sorry I couldnt get anything cos I was down with HEEENEEE. But ah wells, yall know my heart lah. I LOVE MY SQUADMATES!!! :D And oh the thingy the Prisci gave us is so so pretty! (Though I dont know how to use it, I still have last year's one also) Okay one day I'll take a photo of it and post it here.

Okay then we cabbed down to Downtown East for our Farewell party 2009. Aww I am so gonna miss NYSJ so much. ): The performances were quite cool. And the publi thingy was like so unique and creative lah! :D Hmm I really wanna visit NYSJ often and hang out with squadmates. Thats if I have any time at all. :/ And I havent even seen comp team yet!! I'll try to go back before mock comp 1... Ah wells, anyway, thanks juniors, thanks seniors, and most of all, thanks squadmates for making my NYSJ journey an unforgettable one.

181209
Went down to SYFC hq early in the morning to collect our certs. Haha actually can dont go one lah. Cos I was really tired. But anyway, went to KAP to lunch and talk lots of crap. Somehow ended up in NUSH and toured around with Viv being our tour guide LOLOL.

191209
I woke up with a bad sore throat, which was the start of me being sick. Still, I went to YWCA Kid's Club for the first time. It was quite a nice experience, though the kids went a bit crazy playing games cos it was their Christmas party. Hmm I'm still considering whether to join, really gotta depend on my workload for next year and whether I am able to cope or not...

Church was great as usual. Gel was quite nice, we played some games. Then had worship. And for service I was serving :D I like serving in the house of God, somehow it just makes me feel happy. :D And the sermon by Pastor Andy was another reminder that we need to maintain our relationship with God.

201209
Another Vivant meeting. This time Hubert couldnt come but we had Rasyiqah and Mayshuen. :D We had it in Cat High, and ironically, there seems to be a lot of cats in Cat High. LOL. Okay the meeting went on quite smoothly, we threw in quite a few ideas and stuff. The last part we were crapping about anything and everything haha. Group bonding.

Oh but actually by that time I alrdy had fever, but I still went out cos Vivant meeting is rather impt lah. Anyway thats why I cant go out today... ): I have been out every single day last week lah. And I think thats taking a toll on my body, I felt quite exhausted. Right now after hours and hours of sleep I do feel much better, except that I'm quite upset abt not being able to go out. I wanna see JW's sis and say hi to her and tell her I'm also JW's sis hahaha. But nvm. I hope they webcam with me later. (:

Now, lets end this post with some photos! :D

If you know me well enough, u'd know the real reason I blogged.

2009-12-17T10:51:00.003+08:00

I dont know if I have posted these before. But recently have been listening to these songs quite frequently. Other than the fact that G-Dragon is damn cool... This song is just sad... I never forgot. And the hole is still in my heart.

2009-12-12T12:45:00.000+08:00

021209
Bball and arcade with Jun Wei, Jie Hong, Shiuh Sheng, Kai Jie and Rebecca. Bball was quite sian cos my arm was hurting rather badly so I played damn lousily... We tried to play captain's ball but then realised it was too lame, cos 6 ppl means only 2 ppl playing on each side... And it's the first time in my whole life I actually spent $10 on arcade. But I only played one shooting game, which I sucked at, so it affirmed me that my thinking that arcade is a waste of money is really true. Aiya but then it was quite fun. JW attempted to tie my hair! LOL! Rebecca was much better at it...

031209
Singapore Youth For Christ Christmas D.I.Y (Declared In You) Evangelism Camp Day 1. We were splitted into groups based on our areas, so I was in the same group as the HC ppl. Group 4: Xiao Hui, Joanne, Liu Yi, Sarah Chua, Sarah Koh + Jane (who's in SMU) + Jiang Yin and me + our leader Michelle. The main events of the day was the games in the afternoon which we learned abt sin and the effects of sin. And the talk at night abt the Wrong&Right Perception of Christmas, which was rather interesting, I called JH to ask him what he thinks abt Christmas haha. I think most of the wrong perceptions are actually more of non-Christian thinking, but it's good that we can go through the right perception again cos it'll definitely help in evangelism this Christmas. Which makes me actually think, what does Christmas mean to me? Hmmm.

041209
Camp Day 2. Tracking Back The Origin Of Christmas was quite good. We went through the whole Christian timeline starting from Adam and Eve, how sin started, how man was separated from God, and how God was with man throughout history and eventually how Jesus Christ came down to save us. Amen! Then was the virus game, which we got first!!!! YAY our prize was ice cream! :D Really nice. I went home a while after that...

051209
Vivant!09! Pre Camp. After some games, we met our grp members. Group 3: Leaders Marietta and Jasmine + Jing Kai, Zhen Feng, Hubert and me. And thats all that came for the day I think, not sure abt the rest. But it was a great time with them, I even brought Zhen Feng to church.

Church had reshuffling this week. We moved on the Z2. I'm so glad I'm still with Sarah, but it's rather sad we hardly know anyone in our cell grp... Section 2a Cell 1. For the core team for our grp: Me, Sarah, Joseph, James, David, Hoang. And I have 2 sbs! :O Thats a great responsibility, but at the same time I think it'll really help in my spiritual growth. Guess I have to go for SP course soon! (:

So within a day I met many new ppl which I will have to work with for next year. I think the stress is starting to build up, hope I will be able to cope next year!

061209
6/4 class outing was pretty much fun. Me, Choon Searn, Chee Sheng, Sandra, Ke Ting. We went to watch Case 39, which was a horror. I havent been watching horror shows since forever luh. It was quite scary, like the whole plot and the sometimes the suddeness just scares me. But then the ghost didnt really look very scary lol.

After that I mugged maths at Starbucks with Brandon. It's quite nice cos we havent been studying for quite long, then I was telling him some stuff. :D

071209
Lunched with Arturo and Kai Jie at Marina Square. Then met up with the rest, jw, jh, viv, rebecca to play bowling. Whoa I really sucked at it man. Lots of zeros. And next time if we go bowling, REMIND ME TO BRING SOCKS!!! Buying socks is more ex than shoes rental lol. After that we went to Vivo skygarden to do nth. We also went to Daiso to cos me and jw need to buy a gift for our mortals.

081209 to 111209
VIVANT!09! CAMP!!! It was a blast man!My grp was Shining Tornado, consisting of Ashton, Zhen Feng, Hubert, Kevin, Geraldine, me, Marietta, and Jasmine.

Day 1 - Dry games in the afternoon. I think we did rather well, teamwork was there and everything, cant rmb much actually, but I really enjoyed myself. Except for Eagle and Chick, cos I was second throughout and it made my arms ache cos the ppl in front were so violent. And then I didnt really enjoy the Merlion game also cos I didnt have strength to spit and also cos it made me really really giddy. Then at night there was Apprentice planning. Even though it was really last min, I think everyone worked calmly and there were a lot of ppl who voiced out ideas, which I think was what made things work luh. Then was Count Me In. I really really like the game. I think it's brilliant idea and really builds teamwork. Maybe I can use it for future events which require games planning haha.

Day 2 - Bidding for breakfast in the morning. We were quite lucky and got quite good food. Then the VWO visit. I went to One Hope, it was a Christian based organisation which helps problem gamblers. I learnt quite a lot abt gambling, but I felt really tired halfway through... ): Wet games in the afternoon was fun!!! But then I fell down during the soapy game so I got big ugly bruises on my left knee now. I like the raising hand game, though it was really really very cold haha, but very high! Quest Of The Titans was omg. It was exactly the same Disabled! Lol. But then somehow our strategy wasnt the same. Cos there were guys and they were strong so we could like just all move as a group and even have some blind ppl not carrying anyone but just being led by a mute. I think this wont work for sj, cos we just have girls, who arent as strong as guys, so I figured we were just plain lucky haha.

Day 3 - Ask Stupid Question was a talk by someone from NLB, rather interesting, but only useful to an extent luh. Afternoon we carried out Apprentice, which was quite nice. I was sort of food ic. It was quite a nice experience, cos honextly speaking, I havent been interacting with the elderly for quite some time. And the ah ma I was talking to held my hand!! So sweet lor... :D Then we had amazing race, which ended at Sentosa, so we were playing games at Siloso Beach. And we had buffet dinner and found out our penpal, which I alrdy did beforehand. My mortal/angel is AVEN A.K.A MARY JANE!!! Haha he's damn nice lah, a guy from VJ... At night after showering most ppl went to training room to play stupid games like Fuzzy Wuzzy and Touch etc etc. It was raelly funny. After that most of us were writing letters. Then I fell asleep at around 5am, and when I woke up, it was 7 plus and everyone around me were sleeping so I went back to sleep lol.

Day 4 - I cant really rmb what we did except watch montage and everything. We were also split into our project groups for next year, our group is doing children and we decded our area of focus would be children with ADHD, coolios. Lunch was really funny haha. Cos we wanted to get back at the facils for Apprentice. So Zhen Feng and the rest acted out and pretended that he likes Marietta and both Jasmine and Siti really believed so it was really funny. I wasnt talking much cos most of the time I was trying to control myself from laughing lah. After I reached home I went online and typed out the discussion to send everyone and said hi to ppl I havent talked to for days, and fell asleep at 7 plus lol.

Vivant is really awesome, I am looking forward to more fun!!!!

2009-12-01T16:04:00.004+08:00

好久好久没用华文写博客了...我想我应该开始多用华文,毕竟明年应该没什么机会了吧(希望如此).

昨天下午跟 JIE HONG,JUN WEI,SONG ZHI,QIAN CHENG,REBECCA 出去打羽毛球.大概是超久没运动了,不一会儿就开始觉得很累...而且今天也感到肌肉酸痛.还好星期三又能和大伙儿出去打篮球!活动活动筋骨总是好的,不然老是呆在家里,迟早会变成肥婆.哈哈.打羽毛球后,我们开始玩 D/D,男生们还秀了一下舞艺,真好玩. :D 然后我们到 Causeway Point 的 Timezone 玩 DDR 等,总算度过了快乐的一天. :D

今天也没什么大事发生啦,想写博客的主要原因是因为刚刚剪头发,跟之前的发型大有不同,所以想问问大家的意见.
(Picture removed cos it doesnt look like me.)
如果不好看,也请大家直接告诉我.谢谢.

再见!

2009-11-28T14:30:00.009+08:00

Wow I havent been here since forever! Many many things happened during my absence...

#1 LAST WEEK IN SCHOOL + GRAD CEREMONY + GRAD NIGHT
Last week in school was a lot of camwhoring. Me and Rebecca and Michelle went all around school takng pictures. And there was also the awesome self timer jumpshot, which was damn cool. And before grad ceremony, me and Michelle and Rebecca went out with Qiu Ru and a few of their AV juniors to 7 eleven... I like that place, it's such a cosy corner. (:

Grad ceremony was really just kinda boring. We got the CERT HOLDER on stage? I agree with Sharon, thats just too procedure like, it's just 'for show', which is kinda :/ >< Yeah.

But whatever is the case, I hope friendships will last, though somehow reality might not always be the way we want it to be. I guess it's inevitable that friends will drift apart sooner or later if we spend less and less time with each other. Next year, everyone will be busy. I wonder whether true friendship will really last. What does true friendship really mean to me? I also dont know. What I want to say is hmm... Facils, squadmates, and well, all my good friends... This whole year has been awesome cos of u guys. (You know who u are...) And, I want u guys to know, even if we may drift apart in the future, I wont forget yall, and all the good times, good memories. Thanks friends. :D

And I dont think I will go into details of my 4 years in ny. Other than the studying, of course life in ny would not be complete without teachers, juniors, seniors, even the school building, and of course all my friends. All these will be part of my ny memory. To be remembered for many years to come. Okay I shall cut short the whole thing and end here. For now, pictures. :D

#2 KYUSHUUUUU <3
The part of the trip before the SF started was indeed unforgettable.
Unforgettable 1: Cultural shock. Everyone was super polite!!! I loved the tradition whereby people would stand on the left side of the bus to wave us goodbye. It's AWESOME TTM! :D And if u hear ppl talking to each other, they say thank you and please all the time! How I wish Singaporeans would be like this one day...
Unforgettable 2: Toilets. I love the toilets!!! All so clean! And the buttons at the side are so fun! :D And I love the warm seat thingy, it's so good during cold weather! :D
Unforgettable 3: Vending machines! Those are everywhere! Even in the mountainous areas, out of nowhere there would also be vending machines. It's damn awesome, can buy anything, from the normal drinks to fried food, hot soup, alcoholic drinks and cigarettes. That, is really really cool. :D
Unforgettable 4: Takachiho High School visit. It was fun interacting with the students! I made quite a few new friends! Haha esp Takenori who was with us throughout! :D He has nice eyes lol. :D Their Eng lessons were quite cool... And we also went for calligraphy and kendo. Too bad we couldnt stay longer since their exams are coming up... But I hope we can continue emailing! :D
Of course, MOST UNFORGETTABLE: Farmstay! It was damn fun! And I miss ojijang, obajang, jijang, and bajang so so so much! I rmb the first night jijang was laughing so hard at me. Erm okay actually everyone was lah. But he lauged the most. Cos I was the first person to shower. And it's their tradition to take a bath after showering lah, which is what they call Ofuro. Then cos I didnt know what to do mah, the water was so damn hot! I couldnt go in at all... So I stirred the water with my arm and waited for it to cool LOL. I know thats like stupid. But then I didnt know mah. The water was 48deg... 0.0 I was the first person okay. Sacrifice HAHA. And oh, he likes Artaro a lot a lot. HAHA I didnt know old ppl were into soft toys. :D

The food was super nice, esp the veggie, which was very very fresh. *Note: Michelle asked for more! (And Michelle dont even eat veg -.-) And TAKOYAKIIIIIIII! And we also made bento. And we had steamboat. And temaki. A lot a lot of nice food. Except erm, NADO, which Michelle really didnt like HAHA. It's this beans which have fungus on top, causing the whole thing to be sticky and gooey and stick to your mouth and almost impossible to chew. Yeah u get it. Anyway, Mrs Sandy Tan loves it. 0.0 That sounds so sadistic right? 0.0 LOL.

Anyway we went to pick tomatoes too! And played Heart Attack and Donkey with our host family. It was a hell lot of fun. They were so cute. I hope I can write them a letter soon.

Photosssss~

More on fb...

#3 NEW CLIQUE?
Heh lol nowadays I have been hanging out with ppl from NUSH lol, more like JH's clique luh. Which consists of QC, JW, Viv, Box, Gan etc etc. Lol. And I kinda intro-ed Rebecca to them also. It's kinda cool. They're all very very smart and nice. :D Haha ytd me and JH and QC and Viv went out. :D We initially wanted to watch a movie but cos public hol, couldnt get tickets. So we ended up walking around from Vivo to Marina Square to Bugis Junction. We went to take neoprints! :D And I still think QC looked like a girl, lol. :P The not screwed neos:

Then next monday we're going out to play badminton and will get to know more ppl again. :D Okay, so I'll post abt that next time. Shall end here for now.(:

2009-11-09T11:57:00.002+08:00

Hmmm havent been posting in a while... Recently life has been all abt slacking and well, doing a teeny weeny bit of chi... It's strange how some ppl might think my chi is okay (Such as wd), so they keep coming to ask me for tips and stuff lol. (LOL at this point of time, wd suddenly talked to me on msn. Seeems like 说曹操,曹操就到 -.-)

Okay anyway I said I wanted to blog abt how random strangers like to talk to me yeah. Cos the other day, which was last tues, a similar thing happened.

I was on the way home from sch, crossing the underpass. At the underpass from Northpoint to Yishun mrt, there will often be some elderly or disabled selling tissue or busking... On that particular day, there was an old man blowing the harmonica and another old man selling tissue. And cos I only have 50cents left, I donated to the old man blowing the harmonica. And anyway, I also always buy tissue from that other old man... Then when I was going up the escalator, a girl from a certain jc came and stood beside me. She asked why I didnt donate to the old man selling tissue but to the old man blowing the harmonica. So I explained to her. And she started talking to me abt how she just lost $2 and thats her dinner money. Then she asked if I am in jc, then I was like 0.0 (I was in sch uniform), I said no I'm in secondary school. Then she was like Oh! So guai... Then I totally diao cos there's no link lol. But then I still smiled at her, just to be polite, while she goes on to asking where I live etc. And all these happened on the escalator on the way to the mrt station. Then when we reached the mrt station, we parted ways and she said bye to me as though she knew me.

LOL isnt that weird... But well, I dont know since when, these kind of incidents have been happening rather frequently so I kinda got used to it. Ugh whatever... Actually I wanted to use this post to distract myself cos I am not exactly very very happy now, if u get what I mean. Seriously, maybe 24 hours a day is too short. No time to catch up with ppl, or rather, no time for ppl to catch up with me either. I suddenly feel like talking to DRP... Bye ppl.

2009-11-03T21:58:00.006+08:00

Haha this was the other day after Maths we went Just Noodles.

Recently, I have been really motivated to be consistent in my Time Alone With God and to do it every morning cos of this grp of ppl! In the background: Jewel, Shermaine, Sarah! And Hui Er too, she's not in the photo somehow. Haha. It's really nice and encouraging to see this group of ppl sitting at the track every morning spending their time with God! And we've all decided to continue doing this even in jc! Amen! and I guess since prayer meetings are in the mornings in jc, it wont be too hard to get this group of ppl to pray tgt. It's like WOW. Can totally see God at work. Initially it was just me and Jewel and Sarah. Then it started growing! And actually, we didnt really agree to meet or anything, it was just such a silent understanding to be there every morning, it's such a nice feeling. :D

Anyway, today was kinda boring... We had Chi for around 3 hours, then recess and a few talks zzz. I fell asleep for periods of time and I feel kinda bad abt it now, but really cant help it... :/ Oh GCP was quite fun, we did our performance item, Singapore Town, and came up with the dance. I think it's nice! :D Looking forward to the trip YAY!

After sch I went to NUSH to find JH. Erps he didnt tell me so many things! I only knew he was having dance rehearsal... I didnt know all of them were guys. And right, I asked him so many times like would it be weird, like will he get suanned and everything and he told me to just go, so I went what. Lol then all of them just dismissed themselves when they saw me -.- Initially I still wanted to look at their dance and give them comments and maybe some help... They do sound like they need help yeah. Lol I think I should just forget it. Haha I was telling JW and QC I went NUSH today and they had the same kind of reaction... Lol it's quite funny. Aiya cos JH nv tell me anything, I should have gone to find them or sth... Oh yeah, I think their sch building looks really boring, ny still nicer. :D And, I think a lot of ppl from NUSH are like looking at my fb profile and stuff cos of all the rumours lol. It's just quite childish? -.- Maybe, just maybe, I'm suspecting, can JH even be considered my close friend? I am not sure... There seems to be too many things I dont know. :/

And I realised, lots of random strangers like to talk to me!!! o.0 Okay I shall blog abt this another day, I'm quite sick of blogging. Bye!

2009-10-31T23:23:00.001+08:00

This is damn sad.

2009-10-26T21:00:00.001+08:00

Wow the marking days have come to an end, so fast!!! It has been a really fulfilling break! :D

WED, after our Maths paper, me and Rebecca and Chiam met Shi Lun at City Hall! :D We went to Suntec to eat at this place called Just Noodles, just that we didnt eat noodles, we ate rice LOL. And there were free flow drinks and ice cream WHEE~ Anyway I am positive that Shi Lun ate at least 20 ice creams rofl. I was sitting right opp him watching all these, and it was so funny he asked me so many times whether I wanted to go get ice cream... And it was truly a joy to be with facils once again, even though it's just 4 of us. :D We crapped a lot, too a lot of photos and videos and laughed at ppl falling down during ice skating in Shi Lun's cam. As usual, he has not uploaded pics! But there was the vid he uploaded on fb, damn hilarious! The process of making a vanilla float aka vanilla coke! :D Oh, we totally sat there until there was absolutely no one in that shop HAHA. I call this facils 的威力! LOL. Then after that Chiam left first and me and Rebecca and Shi Lun went to Lot One and started playing "I have never." It was fun! Awesome time. :DDD

THURS, me and Shermaine and Jiang Yin and Janice went down to SYFC (Singapore Youth For Christ, not Youth Flying Club/ Youth For Causes) head office to have a sec 4s chill out and talk abt jc ministry sort of thing. And the reason there was only four sec 4s was cos there wasnt much sec 4s in the first place... So I guess most of us would rise up to become leaders next year! Hmm, I am quite worried abt my commitments next year, but I have faith that God will provide! :D Anyway, we ate lunch and then went to the recreation room to talk abt events in the hols and like evangelism training and stuff for the start of next year. I am really looking forward to all these opportunities for me to serve God and to grow in Him! Yeah, after that Boon Jin left and we started to play games. Praise the Lord, for He has blessed us with a fruitful time! :D

SUN, I met a lot of new ppl! Morning I met JH and his friends - Vivian, Gan Shun and Qian Cheng. It was quite nice talking to them, except that we didnt really do much... We ate lunch at Subway, then proceeded to arcade. After a while we got bored, and I feel quite bad they cant watch a movie cos I have to go at 3 plus. Then we went to Jurong Point to walk around, since it was bigger. We ended up at Starbucks, just sitting and chatting. They're cool ppl. If only they could stop the suanning, cos I'm not really used to it... >.<

Then I rushed to meet Boon Jin and gang at KAP. Was late ): But right, we still reached the earliest. We played games and had many rounds of self intro, where me and Hui Er kept introducing ourselves tgt, as in Hui Yee and Hui Er (one and two in chi u see)... Then more and more ppl came and we started eating, first in girls and guys formation, then switched to the numbers thing they do in school so that we can mix around. Then after that we went up and had some talks which actually made me think abt a lot of things. I really hope I can rmb to place priority in God next year, with so many commitments (distractions). And I guess actually in all things that we do, we should glorify God with it, instead of just doing it for ourselves. Thats what we always learn at church. :D And then I was also thinking abt hol plans again, whether I can make it for Ignyte camp, and the Scoop Troupe and all the other camps and trainings and street evangelism Boon Jin talked to us abt. Then after that we went home quite late.

Just to recap all the ppl I got to know. Derrick, the guy who wrapped up and drove us to Newton. Jun De, the guy who was diagonally opp me at the dinner table after the number thing and I heard he's a great guitarist. Sarah, the girl from St Nick's who went to hc (So smart!) and she was at our table. The other Sarah, who was also known as Salad whom I have seen before at bible study. Willie, the SMTP guy (also smart!) who is in CO and eats a lot and was opp me at the dinner table. Kuan Yue, the Choir pres (if I'm not wrong) who used to be hcisj training head (YAY!) and sat next to me in the car and has a guitar. Matthew, the guy who kept changing his name with Kuan Yue, and thats like the only thing I rmb... Jason, the guy who wore formal cos he came from church and he was sitting at the front seat in the car. Rachel, who takes trip Sci and Maths and Econs (OMG isnt that crazy?! So smart!) and was at the bus stop with us. Esther, who was from guides and took the train home with me and lives at Kathib. Xiao Hui, the host who was really friendly. Bo Yan, the guy who led worship (He's blessed with such a good voice!) and I saw him at bible study the first time I went. Winston, the welfare guy who bbq my marshmallow for me YAY and he told me he likes to eat (I didnt tell him, but me too!). Zhi Wan, the guy who used to sleep, yeah now he doesnt HAHA. Theresa, who's from MAD and knows Kelvin. Yeah and sadly, I cant rmb any other names. But I'm sure I'll slowly get to know them and learn from them in the future! So many ppl I got to know right! Bless my memory. Haha.

MON, Operation: Christians In Demand! Met Boon Jin and Michelle and Janice and the sec 3s at the house at Jln Naga Sari. Then we started discussing the plans for Operation CID. It's rather cool. I hope the event will be successful! :D

2009-10-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

每次听这首歌,我都会想起从前.
从前,似乎是好久好久以前...
但一切回忆却依然那么的清晰,
那种感觉,我何时才能再次体验?

在一起的每一刻都深深地印在我心中,
深得已留下了烙印,永远永远都无法忘却.
尤其是我们的每个第一次,回忆起来特别令人伤感.
我不知为何我还紧抓着过去不放...
D:

2009-10-24T01:38:00.001+08:00

THIS IS LIKE SO COOL! ESP THE NOBODY AT THE BACK!!!! OMG, I SHOULD TOTALLY HAVE BEEN THERE! FLASH MOBS! :D

2009-10-23T10:51:00.003+08:00

I slept at 3am+ ytd night, or rather, to be more accurate, this morning. I just couldnt sleep, I have no idea why. At midnight, I was still feeling very awake, so I told POS I'm gonna go to bed... I was thinking maybe if I read a book (Stephen King's Just After Sunset which Brandon gave me as a birthday present, I've nv had the time to read it) then I'll start feeling sleepier. Oh yeah, to sidetrack a bit, the first time I read the book to bed I really fell asleep, not because it wasnt good, but because I was way too tired. And cos the book is soft cover and I think I kinda slept on it, it has folds on the cover now, which really irks me. I dont know, it's just one of the things I OCD abt...

Anyway, back to last night, I didnt feel any sleepier reading the book. It was a compilation of short stories, but the story I was reading, N., wasnt really that short cos Stephen King initially wanted to make it into a book. The story was...crazily scary. More scary than Carrie and any of his other stories I've ever read. (Carrie was scary, it gave me chills...) I have no idea why. You know, I always like to picture what I read. I guess it was because his story was so real it freaked me out a bit. Okay not a bit maybe, I was so scared I called POS at 3am in the morning. Can u imagine that? I feel quite stupid abt it now. The story is actually very fictional... But I could just picture everything so well. Zzz. I think I shall read it a few more times so that I can start laughing abt it LOL.

Actually, maybe it wasnt so much of the story. It was just that after reading it right, I started to think abt a lot of things. In fact, all the uncertainties in my life. I felt really horrible. It was so horrible I started to pray... (Much calmer.) And well, I soon fell asleep, dreaming a lot of weird dreams. All my deepest thoughts ran through my mind... Aiya I dont know luh. The story was like a trigger. Tsk tsk. Okay, I shall just pray abt it I guess. There's nth much to worry abt, just a night full of nightmares. I havent had dreams for so long I think it's starting to make my brain feel fuzzy and all haywire lol. But I think thinking abt it this way and blogging abt it makes me feel much much better LOL.

Well, back to normal normal life now, not a world of imagination. Hmm, I thought before eoys ended I had wanted to blog abt a million things, but somehow I dont really rmb them anymore. HAHA. I cant believe I am at home right now, when it's marking day. Everyone's either out, or just sleeping in. I woke up early cos I wasnt really sleeping much, with all the bad dreams... Oh yes, I was so excited last night! Comp trial is next week!!!!! YAY! I have been wondering when it'll be! :D I'm so excited at the prospect. And mahjong with teammates next week! WHEE~ :DDD I miss teammates so much. Talking to sharon ytd made me feel like I really havent been catching up with them... Eoys had made all our lives boring and just all abt mugging luh. Now we can finally get a life! I realised how long I havent been thinking abt CCA cos of all the studying. Lol. Okay, I shall go watch videos to entertain myself now!

(edit)
I finished rereading N. It isnt that scary anymore. Stupid me HAHA.
(/edit)

2009-10-20T11:51:00.002+08:00

Hmm eoys arent over yet, but I just almost feel like it's over. Somehow the last paper seems to put a lot of stress on me cos it's the last paper we're taking in ny after all... So we ought to do well for it. Dont leave any regrets.

Thats why I didnt go for facils outing ytd. Actually I didnt really understand why rebecca went. I dont know, I just knew it was the right thing to do not to go. Honestly, I felt quite horrible and was very tempted to go. Luckily brother was there and he told me I shouldnt go, so that assured me a bit. THANKS BROTHER!

Anyway, I went to NP to mug with study partner Brandon. LOL NP is like super big. I guess I did quite a lot of Maths. And there were a lot of qtns I didnt know how to do. That kinda made me feel accomplished. Cos I always think that having qtns is a good thing. No qtns at all would be rather scary... Bombarded POS with qtns last night. Feel quite ps now. I still dont know how to do a lot of qtns though. But nvm, I will work hard today! For the last time in ny! YEAH GOGOGO!

Anyway, taking a break from Maths. I randomly went to Project Sunshine email. It's really amazing the things they're doing. Somehow it makes me look forward to Vivant!09. I guess there'll be tons of opportunities for such projects. Even though I guess it'll be another commitment for me next year, I still look forward to it a lot. :D

Speaking of which, I think time management is really even more crucial for me. There are alrdy commitments which would definitely be brought to next year, so I can more or less foresee my future and get a piture of what kind of CCA I want.

1 There'd be prayer meeting once a week after school, thats for sure. When I committed myself into this, I alrdy knew whats coming up for me. I hope jc ministry isnt too stressful or anything. But I ave no worries actually, God will be with me. :D Amen. We're having a sec 4s chill out this thurs, I cant wait! :DDD And I hope I can even rise as a leader and learn so much from seniors next year!
2 Haha of course I'm continuing the Project Sunshine tutoring. :D I am quite glad to contribute with what I have to this project cos I feel that this is a very meaningful project and it's really impacting lives. And I'm also looking forward to more active involvement in this project, if they need manpower for anything. :D
3 Then there'll be future prospects for Vivant!09. I am quite positive I'll be committing myself into another service learning project after the camp and stuff. And I feel quite excited abt it actually. :D
4 And last but not least, there'll still be church every Saturday! :D

That doesnt leave me with a lot of time each week... And of course, ensuring I have enough sleep is very important as well. (As Chen Xu and PYB would tell me.) So I think I would need to make good use of all the limited time I have, such as studying while traveling etc. I just hope I will be able to keep up with my studies, and have the mental ability to do so... And the conclusion is that my CCA shouldnt take up more than 3 days of the week. 3 days is like stretching me to the max alrdy. And that more or less narrows the range of CCA I can be in. Was talking to godbro Alex abt this ytd... And he was giving me some advice. Yupp! Next year is definitely gonna be crazy, but God will give me strength! :D I shall be off to study hard now! JIAYOU EVERYONE! LAST LAST LAST!

2009-10-16T16:36:00.009+08:00

Finally here again. Lol okay I'm just gonna post a few long overdue photos and go do Maths! :D
My fav cousins came to SG 2 weeks ago! :D And I managed to relax for a day. :D I cant wait for cny to come so that I can see them again! :DDD Anyway the girl in Coral is the cousin closest to me, we've been very very close since young. Too bad she lives in KL and I only get to see her once every year. And I'm quite close to her bro too, thats the green guy with yellowish stuff on his shirt. He's damn funny. And the girl in the black tank top is his fiance. Cool right. I hope them to get married soon!!!!

Lol the super long ago URA outing. :D

And more birthday photos from Sarah's phone! :D

Lots and lots of things happened throughout this whole period I stopped blogging... But mainly mugging I guess. My fav hangout is like Woodlands lib and KAP. 0.0 LOL. And, not forgetting what I have been wanting to do like since forever - After eoys to do list+ Hol plans+ Anything thats coming up! WHEE~

1 26 Oct- Operation: Christians in Demand! [Ooh I cant wait for lots of events like these!]
2 10 Nov- Higher Chi O levels [We can ace this man!]
3 18 to 25 Nov- GCP @ Kyushu, Japan! :D [Maybe a few days before that I can stay over at Michelle's house! And we can go shopping for stuff! :DDD]
4 8 to 11 Dec- Viavnt!09 Camp! :D [THIS IS EXCITING!]
5 14 to 17 Dec- Ignyte Camp! :DDD [THIS IS LIKE EVEN MORE EXCITING!!!!!]
6 To-dos with Michelle: Cycling, Choreograph dance for MAD audition (?), Learn Abracadabra, Stayover (?), Parkour (?) :D
7 To-dos with Zhi Yuan: Learn Korean, Kpop dances (? If not I also wanna learn myself.) :D
8 To-dos with Arturo: TALK A LOT xD, Go to the beach :D
9 Study (!!) with Brandon. :O [Haha I promised.]
10 People to go out with: FACILS!!!!! 17! POS&PYB! DRP! SQUADMATES! SARAH&SHERMAINE&BUZZ! P6 CLASSMATES! :D
11 Go for some holiday dance classes or sth :D
12 Work! :D
13 CIP - Touch Young Arrows (?) :D
14 Watch a lot a lot of Korean variety shows! :D
15 Read books - Harry Potter xD, Stephen King books etc.

Doesnt this sound exciting?! :DDD

This song is quite sad... But the mv is -.- Just a lot of kissing. Anyway, brother 说得对,思念的确是一种病.

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头

一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪

我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
借口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚么蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病一种病

多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那么美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病一种病

And I realised I havent been fangirling abt dbsk for very long alrdy... I wonder hows the lawsuit, I cant seem to find much thats in Eng... Anyway, this is one of my all time favs. Their hair is funny though. And, I dont know whats longway people. 0.0 But the song is beautiful.

Blink... Smell it... and feel it...
Open, open your eyes
Just look at me now

You were my world
One lost shoe, a small broken fingernail
The spilled hot coffee and stale tears too

Blink... Smell it... and feel it...
Open, open your eyes
Just look at me now

You were my world
One lost shoe, a small broken fingernail
The spilled hot coffee and stale tears too

Girl, tell me little lie
Please, tell me little lie
So that I can hear you
But you just softly slipped away...

*
Longway people
Longway people
That's right... we were unaware that day, just talking

**
Longway people Longway people
Just crying... crying... crying... Can I forget?

On this never-ending road...That you're no longer on
As we kiss goodbye

Girl, tell me little lie
Please, tell me little lie
So that I can hear you
Now the snow piles up, enveloping me

* Repeat

Longway people
Longway people
Just crying... crying... crying... Can I forget?

Blurred in the memories,
The number of my tears (my heart will dry)
Are countless, like the stars

** Repeat

Longway people
Longway people
I know you will live in my heart forever

Longway people
Longway people
I'm just crying, crying crying... as we kiss goodbye

BIRTHDAY POST!

2009-09-14T21:25:00.009+08:00

BEWARE: LONG POST AHEAD!
Hmm I know I'm supposed to be on hiatus, but since it's my birthday today, this shall be an exception then! :D This year's birthday is just as exciting as any other! Maybe even more exciting! :DDD

My birthday celebration started all the wayyyyyyy from Saturday! :D Morning I met my PILLAR OF SUPPORT (aka JH) to talk (though we were supposed to mug)! And then after a while my Pathetic Younger Brother (aka JW) also came. :D And he was bored, so we decided to walk walk. Walked around in circles a lot. Anyway sidetrack a bit, my this PYB hor, according to POS, he's a Lee Kuan Yew Award recipient! Or sth like that haha... Damn smart right. Okay back to the point. Yay I got treated to Pastamania! And I got my DVD present also! :D So nice of POS. And we chatted a lot a lot a lot. And I liked that PYB also loves to do CIP a lot! :D And apparently PYB knows Jeremias and Joseph but then when I asked Joseph, Joseph doesnt seem to know him at all LOLOL! FUNNY. xD

Then in the afternoon was CHURCH! :D YAY it was really nice. The birthday song at the end of fuel and also during CH debrief. And the cake was so nice!!! And the card, AWWWWWWWWWWWWW <3 It has so much Yunho, and it had happy birthday in Korean too! (Love you Sarah <3) And everyone who wrote in the card/ wished me happy birthday/ prayed for me! Not in any particular order: Michel, Yvette, Jie Kai, Daniel Lee, Deena, Pamela Say, Joseph Wong, Chris Chen, Carolyn, Chris Sern, Zihui, Shao Long, Dennis (Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY too! xD), Camillia, Benjamin Goh, Jason B.N, Shan Ping, Hui Rou, Grace, Le Xin, Bernice, Jewel, Ezra, Ben Voon, Sarah (Tan), Jacob, Gabriel, Eunice, Ryan, Brother Darren, Jonat, Titus, Brother Sam, (Unknown who wrote on card but nv write name), Michael, Joyce, Bernice, Krystal, Sister Jane, (And anyone else who served in CH also, who else ah? Cant rmb... >.<), Hui Sian, Pris. Ahh did I leave out anyone? Anyway, I think it's just such a nice warm fuzzy feeling inside that everyone is God's house is celebrating your birthday. :D I LOVE IGNYTE! :DDD

And OMG when CH was singing birthday song for me, Pastor Dom walked past. HE PULLED MY HAIR AND PINCHED MY CHEEK! 0.0 I was quite shocked. But it felt nice. I guess all pastors treat all the kids at church like their own children luh. :D

Special dedication to SARAH MY DEAREST SP!!!! <3 Oh I really wont know what will be of me without you in my life! And this day I just wanna thank God for letting you come into my life and for guiding me sooooooo much. Thanks for all the constant encouragements and always being such a caring and inspiring SP! Praise the Lord! And I want you to know, you are an AWESOME SP and you have really IMPACTED MY LIFE. LOVE YOUUUUU! <3 ^^ I loved the present and the other card you wrote too. :D

Sunday! WTTTF! Met Shermaine at AMK, thanks for the card and present! <3! Then we went to classrooms with Jun Jie and Jewel and Hui Sian and Shao Long. (: Hmm, I just feel that it's so amazing how WTTTF is just one day before my birthday, it's as though God has a message for me. I could feel His presence so strong, especially when Pastor Andy was talking about the Holy Spirit. It was really impactful. Amen! :D

Anyway, ppl who wished me in advance!
Lin Zhuo on msn. DRP!!!! <3 I shall wait for my nice and cool present HAHAHA. Whee~ :D Ling Feng! Early on fb lol.

On the dot! (Or a few mins early/late according to my clock/actually anyone who smsed/fbked/msned before I woke up at 5am luh) :DDD
In order:RebeccaX2! Chiam! Sheng Hui! Kwang Yu! Brother! POS again X2! Shao Jun! Clarence! DRP again! FBF! Kenneth Lim! Jody cousin! Shi Lun! Kah Keong! Zheng Xuan!
Thanks to those who waited until 12mn just to wish me on the dot!! Ps deprive yall of your sleep luh... Wonder if yall slept in class... =X

Anyway at that moment I suddenly felt like worshipping, so I sang a few songs - How Great Is Our God, Your Name, Hosanna, Mighty To Save, From The Inside Out, Counting On God. I really thank Him for who I am today. <3

And on the great day! Quite spammed. A lot of unexpected birthday wishes... A pleasant surprise. :D
Msn: DRP again!! Daniel Tan SR! Shao Ting! Sean! Bian He!
Sms: ArturoX2! Dennis again! Joseph! Yi Jung! Kai Jie! Shyh Horng! Yongle! Sarah again! PYB! BFF! Wing Yan! Ke Ting! Serena!
Fb: Jewel again! Brother Sam again! Cheong Keat! Guo Xin! Joseph again! Chee Shuan! Hui Sian again! Pamela again! Chris Chen again! Brother again! Shao Jun again! Shiao Kee! Pin Ning! Moon! Yue Quan! Edwin! Lin Zhuo again! Sook Yee my dearest cousin! Deena again! Mong Yi cousin! Poh Cheng! Bo Han! Pris again! Shi Lun again! Ben Voon again! Tong Zhen! Stephenie!
In person: Prisci! Jiang Yin! Angie! Shao Ting! Wai Tiem! BFF! Sin Ying! Moon again X2! Yi Jung again! Madeline!(Judo one)

And again, as every year, there are some surprises, such as my cousin Jody, or Kah Keong and Ling Feng(YMJR!), Daniel Tan SR, Ke Ting (6/4!), Zheng Xuan, Poh Cheng, and KL. Didnt expect them to wish me luh. Many of them I really havent seen them for quite long, hope we'll have the chance to talk soon. (: And actually I got a lot of things to say abt KL, he just acts very dao, but then I know he's not luh. HAHA I still save his name as "The Ego Dude" in my phone, so funny. xD Okay but thats not the purpose of this post so I shall skip the rest lol.

Slightly late wishes!
Zhi-Yi! XM! Brandon!

Birthday songs!
1) From whole upper Sec after fuel :D
2) From CH after service during debrief :D
3) From classmates during recess surprise :D
4) From Sharon, Yan Quan, Xiao En (and someone from 410 I dont know her name sorry!) :D
5) From Yi Jung and Mei Chun after school :D

Recess surprise!
It was indeed a surprise for me. Actually, even after 2 years with 411, I dont think I have fully bonded with the class yet, so I was really really happy that so many classmates were actually there singing my birthday song and sharing the cake! :D Aww I was so touched... Almost half the class was there I think. So I shall thank 411 here! And ppl who were at the celebration: HALF OF 411! <3 And ppl who stayed longer to eat the cake and talk to me:Michelle, Rebecca, Sarah, Liyi, Rena, Sarah(LSE), Jing Fang, Shi Qi. THANKSSSS I LOVE YOU GUYS! :DDD

Presentssss! :D
IGNYTE! <3

SARAH MY DEAREST SP! <3

PILLAR OF SUPPORT! (PLUS PASTAMANIA MEAL) <3

SHERMAINE! <3 The thingy u gave me was so cool! Anyway, glad that u like to listen to me talk! (:

MICHELLE AND JING FANG! <3 So sweet of yall to buy me drinks! (:

ARTURO! <3 I love the box, seriously HAHA. And the Carebear!!!!! :] And the time u spent to listen to me talk crap. ^^

MICHELLE! <3 The balloon is sooooooo cute! And the flowers and letter was sweet! LOVE!

SHAO TING AND WAI TIEM! <3 Thanks for spending so much time on the file! Though it may not look so much like Yunho, but I could see how much effort yall put in. Love it! And love u guys too <3

THIS YEAR'S BIRTHDAY IS REALLY AWESOME AND FULL OF SURPRISES YAY! :DDD

2009-09-06T12:07:00.002+08:00

TIME TO GO ON HIATUS PPL! TILL THEN. :D

2009-09-05T21:14:00.003+08:00

Claire lent me her nice bangle for FOR ONE!
Nice card.
Sunset view from NY bball court, that tree is in NJC. Anyway the actual thing was much prettier... (:
The sweet Michelle gave me which Jing Fang bought for her from Japan. So cute right!
FOOD! YAY :D

(One!)
Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’-tickin’
Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’ away…

Tick, tick, tick…

I want to see your tears pour out
Pour out for no reason
No one knows the inside of your heart
The glass fragments are raging a storm

The wounds become a sickness
All the doors become a wall
I’ve become an enemy in the mirror
Doesn’t it hurt?

I’ll keep anyone from knowing about you
I’ll leave the breath to tighten out
I’ll force you to choose the end
(Aren’t I bad?)

I’ll take away all reason in the world for you to stand
Without the choice of a road back
I guess you’ll walk to the end
Your breath would probably end before my heart

Wounds (When you cry)
Scars (Though you try)
Tears (Say goodbye)
Flowing (The time is tickin’)

You are (When you cry)
Wandering (Though you try)
Through death
(I’ll save you)

You are the one (One!)
When you’re walking through the shadows
When I’m panicking in the shadows
My breath does the same

You are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
When all the doors in the world close for me
I’ll support you with my hand

You are the one, you are my savior
You are the one, you are my savior
You are the one, you are my savior
My savior (One!)

Time is tickin’, ti-…

Your hand set the world on fire
You close everyone’s eyes
The suffering that was reflected in your eyes
Like stars became your city

(Are you still dreaming?) Still sleeping?
Are you measuring all the tears you’ve shed?
Hope is a paper boat that sinks
Isn’t it sad?

Maybe you wake up drenched in sweat at night
Is consciousness crawling on the floor?
Are you thinking it’s the end?
(Are you okay? ‘Cause I understand)

I’m a scar on your broken body
I’ll erase the tears you’ve hidden away in your shattered marriage
I’ll grab your hand with mine and trust you

Wounds (When you cry)
Scars (Though you try)
Tears (Say goodbye)
Flowing (The time is tickin’)

You are (When you cry)
Wandering (Though you try)
Through death
(I’ll save you)

You are the one (One!)
When you’re walking through the shadows
When I’m panicking in the shadows
My breath does the same

You are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
When all the doors in the world close for me
I’ll support you with my hand

You are the one, you are my savior
You are the one, you are my savior
You are the one, you are my savior
(My savior)

Do you have wounds?
Do you have scars?
Are you wandering through the shadows?

Do you have wounds?
Do you have scars?
You’re still beautiful to me…

You are the one (One!)
When you’re walking through the shadows
When I’m panicking in the shadows
My breath does the same

You are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
When all the doors in the world close for me
I’ll support you with my hand

Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’-tickin’
Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’-tickin’
Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’-tickin’
My savior

One!

I especially love the underlined part. (: Okay, now on to the rest of this week.

星期一
教师节!庆祝会蛮酷的,因为主持人超搞笑,所以大家都很 high!
之后回小学了...很遗憾,一年一年地,回来的人数就越来越少了.不知明年还会有多少人回呢?我想,就算再过几年,我有空还是会回的.毕竟,那里给我的美好回忆太多太多了...而且,没有小学,就不会有今天的我,所以我更应该饮水思源!

星期二
放假!早上跟 YIJUNG,KAIJIE,ARTURO 一起 mug. <3 下午到 AMK Library 跟 Brandon mug.总而言之,就是很 productive! :DDD

星期四
Prayer meeting was an awesome time. Sharon came too. And we had a great time even as we learn abt God's word and continue to grow in Him! :D Then bible study was abt MEDIA. And Boon Jin's old friend Lydia came to talk to us abt it. It was a rather interesting session and I really enjoyed it. Learnt a lot abt discerning what we see/hear, that we should have a Christian mindset and make good Christian choices. :D

星期五
FOR ONE. It's was a crazy time of WORSHIP! I really enjoyed myself a lot. Loved all the songs... And I served too! Only one from PL Sat... Serving God makes me HAPPYYYYY. :D

星期六(今天)
HSK 简直是浪费时间!真的太容易了,多半时间大家都在睡觉,干脆把这些时间花在书本上...
Then CHURCH! <3

MY HOL SCHEDULE SO FAR:
Monday - Project Sunshine AAF, watch Hillary Challenge finals, Arturo's YFC concert (?)
Tues - Chem remedial, Mug with pri sch classmates (?)
Wed - Mug with facils :D
Thurs - Mug with Arturo <3
Fri - Mug with 17!

2009-08-31T22:34:00.002+08:00

AWESOME.

I think Ga In's dance break is damn sexy lol. And the MV is like so NC16 or sth... 0.o But the tune of the song is really catchy. Haha and 2AM+2PM did a parody, which was damn funny and ULTRA GAY lol.

ISNT THIS SO LOL!! Esp JoKwon! And ChanSung too! Heh. Actually all also. SeulOng, Taecyeon, WooYoung! xD Damn gay.

Actually recently I'e been listening to Again&Again quite a lot, and noticing 2PM. I like WooYoung, he's so funny!!! And Taecyeon too! :D

2009-08-30T23:00:00.003+08:00

God's work in my life this week was amazing.

星期一
好兄弟的生日! :D 我们 12 个 facils (好多人! :D) 一起到 KAP 为他庆祝.跟 facils 在一起很开心! :DDD
但是,我觉得生日会有几个缺点,我们还得从我们中学习,避免日后再犯.
失败一: 好险,只差一点他就回家,生日会也就失败了...真是我们太大意了,没有策划好来.
失败二: 没有预测到蜡烛在 KAP 的冷气下容易熄灭,结果造成冷场.
除此之外,一切顺利!我们玩了一下 Truth/Dare - 我们最爱的游戏!还有,我发现我切蛋糕的技术好差...但是还是比 BROTHER 好啦...哈哈哈.然后到最后跟 CHENXU 玩那个翻 mints 的游戏! :D

在场:SHAOJUN,PINNING,YEEHUEH (立化三女),ME,REBECCA,YUNXIN (NY FTW! ^^),CHUNXIAO (!),CHENXU,BIANHE,CLARENCE!

好怀念 BSP CAMP! FACILS FTWWWWW! <3

星期二
重点：BSP TEST
考海外华人和中国改革开放.两个小时,差点把手写断了,还是觉得没写得很好...没关系,尽力了.

星期三
SIAN.没了. -.-

星期四
PRAYER MEETING WHEEEE~虽然只有 JIANG YIN 和 CLAIRE,却很好玩,也学到了很多...好想下星期四会快点到来!

星期五
没有 CCA,我和 SHARON 到 SJ ROOM 看看,叙叙旧.还是很怀念呢!后来跑了 5km,然后和 SINYING 读书,吃晚餐.和 ARTURO,YIJUNG,KAIJIE 一起回家.

星期六
早上去了一个关于 volunteerism 的讲座,还蛮有趣的.Btw, 有好几位进入 Vivant!09! 的都是我们 tea session 的人! 好高兴! :D MAYSHUEN,WANTENG,SHILUN,JINGKAI,YUEQUAN,ME! :D

然后去 CHURCH! <3 终于又 serve 了! :DDD 而且 sermon 也很有意义!

今天
客厅装修,现在有好多好多很大的镜子!可以用来跳舞 leh...我喜欢! (:

希望下个星期会更好! :D 大家晚安!

200th post!

2009-08-27T23:53:00.006+08:00

Some photos first... (WHAT I MISS)
NYNC'08
FACILS OUTING

HAVING FUN

This week:

Lazy to post, point form:
1. This week has been so tiring... I shall post abt stuff that happened this week over the weekends?
-Lu Chang's birthday :D
-BSP test
-Prayer meeting <3
-Vivant!09!
2. My back hurts.
3. EOYs is nearing, I'm dying. ): STUDY HARD!
4. I'm listening to Muttons to Midnight once again. (:
5. FBF, GET WELL SOON!!! <3

Anyway, the main thing abt today's post. I saw this on someone's blog just now "All the new people I've come to know. Wow wow wow wow. I just started school. Where did my life go? How come I don't remember being there? Hate this, again. I hate how I don't get to tell time to STOP, DAMN IT, STOP. People enter your life, people LEAVE. How many are going to leave in this year? What am I going to do?"
I think this is exactly how I feel right now. I've lost count of the number of ppl I've known this year... And I know I'm gonna know even more... It's a really scary thought. I think my brain capacity is insufficient to store so many ppl... Oh no. ): I shall list down the new friends I've made this year?
1. Facils
2. Group 17
3. Project Sunshine
4. Christians (Church, prayer meeting etc)
5. Vivant
6. Friend's friends (E.g. Nelson, Brandon, Jun Wei, Xiao Bin etc?)
I'm quite worried... Does it mean the more ppl I get to know, the more I'll forget too? Hmm, something to ponder abt... And I think it's time to catch up with old friends, if not they're gonna slip away anytime...

BYEBYE.

2009-08-24T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!!! :D

Brother, thanks for all the memories, esp during camp, and all the outings, and the bus rides on 74! :DDD And thanks for always being there for me, listening to my rants, even though u're busy too. FACILS LOVE YOUUUUUU!!! Brotherhood forever. <3

Korean Craze!

2009-08-23T02:30:00.003+08:00

Kara doing Again&Again. Nice! :D

G-Dragon's Heartbreaker! I love the style in the mv luh! :D

I also came across this! :D

And I also watched SGB Idol Special, so nice and funny! :D But got 8 parts though, hard to embed here...
Time to sleeeeeep! :D

2009-08-22T13:22:00.000+08:00

Koped from Kenneth Lui's blog, cool stuff there. :D

2009-08-22T10:43:00.001+08:00

转眼之间,一个星期又快过了.其实也可算是过了吧...很多时候,周末简直快得令人难以相信,根本没法好好休息嘛...星期一,给人的感觉,总是那么地无奈、反感,"怎么又是星期一呀?!" 我只求这个周末能多休息些...我真的很累了...但我不肯向压力低头,因此一有机会就尽量让和朋友在一起.尽管是读书,也还会读得比较开心...

星期二
我和 REBECCA pon 了汉语水平考试的说明会...其实我们本来是有去的啦,但看这么无聊,而且超多人 pon,最后我们也 pon 了,只听了听力的部分...到 KAP meet BOHAN,BIANHE,XIAOBIN.读书读了不到一会儿,大家都没心读了,就开始玩 bridge.后来被工作人员警告说在麦当劳内不可以玩牌,但又找不到别的地方,所以只好回家了...真扫兴!

星期三
和 FBF 跑步! <3 蛮好玩的...我们跑去 KAP, 然后跑回来...好久没跑到那么爽了! :D 哦,进学校时差点被保安人员抓,编了一个烂理由,混进去后赶快拿了书包就走...好恐怖...就为了 H1N1 作出这些防范措施也太夸张了吧...甚至可说是蛮离谱的...我们学校都没管得那么严格...又扫兴!真是的...后来到 KAP 跟 Rebecca 读了一下书就跟干弟弟回家,心情好多了... :D 还有, KAP 最近真的好像成了我第二个家,超常去的!

星期四
放假,YAY!!!!! 好久没和 teammates 出去了...和 SHARON & SHAO TING 到 Plaza Sing 看电影...很巧地, SIN YING 在 Starbucks 读书,太有缘了吧! :D 我好想念 training 的日子哦... ：/ 后来 meet Boon Jin 去 bible study,她说得没错,的确很 intense 的,真能激发我们的思考...嗯,我将开始一个 prayer meeting grp 了!本来觉得自己做不到的,但其实,有上帝,没什么事是办不到的对吗? 他会牵着我的手的. :DDD

星期五
CCA, 我只是去绕学校跑了三圈.本来觉得 timing 还蛮好的 (11:30),但后来想想,其实我的 2.4 应该比这还好... Sian... 真的有尽力... ): 不要紧!我会继续加油的!而且也可能因为肌肉酸痛吧...然后 meet facils 打球! REBECCA, YEEHUEH, PINNING, BIANHE, SHILUN, CHENXU + NELSON. :D 我真希望每个星期五都能 meet 他们...哈哈.我想,如果真是这样,干脆投资一件 hc pe tee 算了,也不会被保安人员 gl...后来和 SHILUN, CHENXU 吃饭,然后回家. 开心的一天! :D

忘了是几时拿回剩下的成绩的...Geog 16/25 ZOMG,是最差的科目!!!还好有得做改正,希望多拿一分吧,那就刚好 B3 了... LA SBQ 13.5/20 - Language 7.5, Content 6.真没想到,怎么可能内容分那么低!! D: MSG screwed 了,那么多 B3 zzz... 要更加把劲了! EOYS HERE I COMEEEEE!

OMG his voice is SOOOOOO NICE! :D

2009-08-18T01:06:00.003+08:00

I'm seriously terribly confused. I trusted u. And now I dont know if I trusted the right person. Who should I believe? I really dont know who lied... I hate it when ppl lie to me. Cos it means they betrayed my trust. And u know how easily I trust ppl. It makes me feel like a fool, so easily cheated. Either way, I feel so insecure now. The tears are flowing. I know I'm weak, but I just cant stop it.

God, show me the way.

2009-08-17T22:11:00.002+08:00

I shall do an English post today, since I scored so badly for Chi. I 偏题 for 应用文 can you believe it, first time in my life... So sadded. ): I got 37, which is not bad for 偏题 actually... But it's still damn sad. My awesome 片段缩写 (19/20) wasted, same goes for my not bad 综合填空 (16/20)... Zzz... Okay I shant talk abt it. Now it's B3. MSG is 2.7. What the... ARGH!!! Sian ttm.

Anyway okay lets calm down... Today went to do AAF. Haha nowadays I very happy to see the girl leh, she improved a lot... Seriously. She got 3rd in class! Talk abt sense of satisfaction. :DDD I hope her Science is okay though, we still havent started at all since there's no textbook and she STILL doesnt listen in class. I wonder whens her EOYs... Oh, we keep forgetting we're supposed to get her a Multiplication Table! Actually maybe I can just draw one up... Yeah, she takes quite long to figure out whats 9X9 for example. I guess she didnt memorise when she was a kid... Heh, and I realised I havent missed a single session of AAF yet. Cool right? HAHA. :D

Haha JH says his class doing the dance. Nice. I want to learn also. Initially I thought the dance quite simple, but actually the hardest is the chorus! The feet movement quite hard to master leh. I cant wait for Dec hols, I wanna go dance classes! Who wants to go with me? :D

NOTE: THE PORTION BELOW WILL BE ABT CHRISTIANITY.
Oh yes oh yes, I think I may be starting a prayer meeting grp in sch! SOOOOO EXCITED!!! And I cant believe it, Shermaine alrdy started one too! YAY Sarah must be damn proud of us. :D Too bad I cant join Shermaine's grp since I have AAF on Monday afternoons. Thats why I'm starting one myself. Gonna meet up with Boon Jin tmr to talk yeah. Actually I feel quite bad that I replied so late, cos I was seriously considering if I could take up such a huge responsibility. And of course it's gonna add to my workload and commitments, but it's all gonna be worthwhile. :D YAY I'm really very excited abt it. And while I was thinking abt whether I should start a prayer meeting grp, I thought abt a lot of other issues as well. One of them being that actually around half of my closest friends are free thinkers. This is the grp I wanna target and pray for their salvation. I guess God had actually spoke to me a lot abt this... And I'm working at it... PRAYING HARD FOR THEM! :D Our God is really an awesome God. <3 AMEN!

2009-08-16T23:43:00.001+08:00

LOOK AT THE STATE OF MY ROOM MAN.

2009-08-16T16:22:00.005+08:00

星期四
和 MICHELLE 去 Daiso 买 Kelly 的生日礼物,很好玩!但是现在真的是口袋空空了...

星期五
FOUNDER'S DAY CELEBRATIONS/FUNFAIR'09/RED AND WHITE DAY.

FOUNDER'S DAY CELEBRATIONS - 现是看影片,然后听一些校友谈她们社区服务的经验,蛮有趣的...我好想出国做 CIP 啊!!可惜今年的 GCP, Regional CIP 因 h1n1 而取消了... ):
FUNFAIR'09 - 洗车!说真的,我从来没有洗过车呢!还好有 Mr Ong 的帮忙...可是我们这一组也算是挺倒楣的,洗
了两辆车,一辆是家庭车,另一辆有很多鸟粪... 而且我们所在之处也有很多猫屎... :/ 但还算是个蛮难忘的经验. (:
然后时间剩下不多,大概只有30分钟,和 Michelle 到处逛,希望能买些食物填饱肚子...我买了一个冰淇淋,鸡翅和烤马铃薯.鸡翅其实没我想象中好吃,而马铃薯根本就不熟,我吃了一半就受不了,把它丢掉了...真浪费钱...
RED AND WHITE DAY - 开始时还很 enthu, 但后来越来越热,就和 Sarah Rena 到后面树下乘凉...再后来,觉得干脆回班上更好.没想到,CWS 竟然会到每一班去查,逼不得以,只好回树下坐...

放学后,到 HC 去打球...很好玩. :D REBECCA, CLARENCE, LUCHANG, BIANHE, YEEHUEH, NELSON. 我们也看到一群人在附近 bboy, 超酷的!有 Airflare/Airtrack, Windmill, Cricket/Jackhammer, 1990/2000 那种神经病的 moves 哈哈.还有超酷的 footwork&rythm! :D

然后和 KAIJIE,YIJUNG,ARTURO 搭巴士回家.

星期六
VIVANT TEA - 认识了一群=志同道合的朋友! (: 我真的很希望我能进,相信一定会是很难忘的经验...
WOODLANS LIBRARY - SHILUN&REBECCA! CAMWHORE FTW!! :D

MUM'S BIRTHDAY - 我很生某人的气...但我觉得妈妈是喜欢我的蛋糕的! ^^

成绩很糟糕...
Subject.Marks.Percentage.Grade.
Chem.33/45.74%.A2. (WTH! I cant believe I got A2 for CHEM.)
Bio.30/45.67%.B3. (SUCKS TTM. No other comments.)
Maths.39/60.65%.B3. (Throughout the whole paper I differentiated wrongly... How much stupider can one get?! I feel like slapping myself. D:)
IH.18/20.90%.A1! (Whoa this is the only result which made me happy, I think this is the highest I ever got for essay. YAYYYY :DDD)
Chi Paper 2.78/110.71%.A2. (Erm I think I could have done better... But I guess A2 was not bad, considering how hard the paper was... And the fact that I was falling asleep throughout the paper. Lol. My 片段缩写 was 18/20! Which rocks HAHA. And I'm still planning to get more marks! Cos she say those who wanna get marks can only ask her next week, so I'm gonna ask her. :D)

The rest havent gotten back yet, but I shall aim:
Chinese Paper 1.62/90.69%.B3. (Cos my aim is A2, so that EOYs and O's can get A1... Like that my aim for 作文 is 47 and 应用文 is 15, quite achievable lah. If my aim was A1 then need to get 72 more marks, which is like damn hard...)
Lang Arts.14/20.70%.A2. (I think A2 is actually quite a high aim, but I seriously thought my ans showed very thorough thinking so should be can? o.0)
Geog.17/25.68%.B3. (Since KT said this is the class average, I shall aim for this lor. Aiya I hope I can get A though...)

Current msg (excludes chi): ~2.6
Aiming for (If all my aims come true): ~2.4
Aiya still damn lousy leh... Nvm, I shall work hard for EOYs... 54 days!

2009-08-16T00:33:00.003+08:00

I still cant let go.
Countless times, I know I need to.
But I cant.
After all the lessons, I'm still not coping with it.
All I know how to do is to cry and cry and cry...
People say time heals everything.
I think time just makes me think more abt the past.
Maybe it's just a part of me which dont want to let go.
I miss u.

2009-08-13T23:15:00.002+08:00

The feeling of nostalgia is coming back. I dont know why, I was just thinking a lot about sj again today. Many a times, I would think to myself, did we really achieve what we wanted and leave a legacy on nysj? I would then start thinking abt events - PUBLIC DUTY (Cross country'08, Funfair'08, CSM'09 etc.), OPEN HOUSE'08, FAREWELL'08, ORIENTATION'09, MOCK COMPS 1&2'09, EMERGENCY EXERCISES, JUNE CAMP'09, and finally PASSING OUT'09... Just looking at CCA-related emails in my inbox (I created a folder for them), there are over a thousand... Opening any email and looking at the files attached; each and every email reflects squadmates' efforts... I also went to look at the alumni email; again, memories, and everything we did for sj. It all seems like ytd. Time passes fast (as usual), but I believe nysj will be etched in our hearts for many years to come.

Actually, I think, frankly speaking, as a training head, I didnt really fulfill my duties as much as I would have wanted to (or have envisioned to when I first became training head). In fact, I feel that there was so much more that I could have done, so much more I wanted to achieve. Perhaps I just didnt treasure my last year in nysj, the year supposedly we were to learn the most things. Towards the end of my term, I had to be prompted a lot, and even had to find ways to motivate myself so that I would enjoy my last days as part of nysj. During my NCO term, I was also facing a lot of stress in other areas; I started to find it hard to juggle things. CCA became like a burden to me. The looking-forward-to-CCA kind of feeling was no longer there. Life was pointless. Maybe, being a NCO was not so much sth for me. Most of the time, I dwelled on the past (esp on comp days), instead on living in the present and trying to contribute to nysj. Seriously, I still do miss my cadet days, those days I pushed myself beyond my limits, achieving the seemingly impossible and feeling contented abt everything at the end of the day. It was just different.

However, I think that I still do miss NCO days too. Training cadets, and the sense of satisfaction when they improve and seeing them rise as leaders, it's a kinda of feeling u wont get anywhere else. I think it's very touching to see them put in effort, and it really reminds me of myself when I was a cadet... And of course, I miss sj room so much also! It's the best hangout man. And we havent even gotten curtains. And I rmb promising to buy new rags for room duty, I wonder when I'll buy... >.< Oh yes, I think at least one thing I've done for nysj is to establish a friendly relationship with hq? Can that be considered a breakthrough? Yupp I shall convince myself thats quite a major contribution. (:

Passing out signifies the end to our term, but I think it doesnt mean an end to us being part of nysj. Now that I've straightened out my thoughts, I guess (hope) it's not too late to still contribute as an alumni. Okay this sounds quite lame... I dont know luh.

Aiya it's impossible for me to pen down all my thoughts, and it's quite hard to organise everything and post properly without getting too emotional. So I think I shall stop posting. There're just so many things nysj has taught me... Unless u go through it yourself, u wont know how it feels. I wanna thank again God for putting me in nysj. AMEN!

2009-08-13T18:01:00.000+08:00

Letting go.

2009-08-12T21:21:00.009+08:00

Yayyyyyy.今天跟 facils mug!REBECCA, YUNXIN, LUCHANG, ME. :D 原本是想既然 fbf 没空,那我自己一个人到图书馆 mug...但是后来 Rebecca 叫我问 facils 要不要 mug... Facils 当然超 on 的啦...一叫 brother, brother 就出来了. :D Anyway,在 KAP 真的看到很多认识的人,感觉很奇妙,因为他们都是我生活中各方面的朋友,大家都跟大家没有关联,很有趣...我看到的人:
1. LIYI: Classmate.
2. LE JING: Haylyan.
3. JOEL: Church friend.
4. SHYH HORNG: CIP person.
5. FACILS :D

嗯,然后今天也收到 Vivant! 的回应,这个星期六得参加茶点.和 SHILUN 一起去! :DDD 本来还想和 Rebecca 去参加一个 BSP 讲座的...而且我也又不能去 Inspire tutoring...已经好几次没去了,很惭愧!!!

还有还有.拿回 Maths 跟 IH. Maths 竟然拿了 B3! D: 很多 careless!!! 可是不要紧,我会把失望/伤心转化为动力,为 EOYs 加把劲的!不过...IH 考得很好哦...甚至可说是一生中考得最好的一次...18/20! :D 总而言之,还是得努力搞好 EOYs!我行的!!! :DDD

昨天...去 Project Sunshine interview... 蛮好玩的. :D

没有了.再见.

PHOTOS

OH YES, I ALMOST FORGOT TO MENTION. I HAD A LAUGHING FIT TODAY. DAMN HIGH. xD

2009-08-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

我不知道该写些什么...说真的,我累了.有时甚至厌倦每天玩乐的生活...一直玩也会累的.其实,那一切也只不过都千篇一律...我很累.我需要静下来喘口气了.现在只想找个人听我诉苦...

Summary
Thurs: Westmall with Angie, Jiang Yin, Jeraldine, Prisci
Fri: Plaza Sing (Takoyaki/Spotlight/Build-A-Bear/Daiso/Macs) with Michelle and Rebecca <3
Vivo skygarden (Water fight/ Truth or Dare) with Michelle and Rebecca <3
Vivo (Dinner) with Bian He, Rebecca, Chen Xu (My bank account xD), Shi Lun xDDD
Sat: Inspire tutoring
Church! :D
Sun: STAY AT HOME
Mon: Sheng Hui's prize presentation for SBA (He won a $1000 phone zomg!)
Mugging (KAP/Westmall) with Bo Han, Bian He, Clarence, Chen Xu, Rebecca, Bradford.

2009-08-09T18:00:00.005+08:00

I have been watching videos on youtube again, damn slack luh. Was watching Tapestry'09. Quite nice. Xm choreo the popping part... I think it was good. :D

I was also watching this other video recommended by Nelson, damn nice. But cannot embed, so I'll put the link, those interested/bored can go watch: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sehdgHCcuV0
Wonder babies damn cute luh.

2009-08-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

扪心自问,我始终还是放不下.过去的一切对我来说实在是太刻骨铭心了,甚至可能令我一生都难以忘怀...真有一股冲动想打醒自己!

2009-08-08T00:51:00.001+08:00

I wish I could stop it.

2009-08-07T07:09:00.004+08:00

哇哈哈哈!昨天睡了十二个小时,厉害吧? :D 今天早上实在太精神了,在班上睡不着,所以就在这里写博客咯!

想写写最近发生的一件事，令我感触许多...嗯，本人这个星期的某天到某间麦当劳时,隔壁着坐着一群同校的学妹.起初,这群学妹表现正常,所以我也没什么注意她们.后来,她们开始大声喧哗,我就有点烦了.因为我隔天还有考试,她们声量那么大,怎么读呢?其实这还没什,，在麦当劳又没规矩说不能大声说话嘛...但是,再后来,我发现有东西掉在我裙子.一看,是一块冰!而且,是从她们那个方向“飞”过来的!也不知是丢过来还是什么（有没有可能是从嘴里吐出来的?! 0.0）...我瞪了她们一眼,没想到,她们竟装出一副没事发生的样子,差点把我气死了!!!真没礼貌呀!

2009-08-04T22:21:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I just feel so weak... I need a shoulder to cry on.

2009-08-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

心情不好,想在这里发泄一下情绪...这样就不会那么难受了吧? ):

上个星期三,发生了一件非常不愉快的事...我想,这里也太开放了,所以不适合在此公开宣布.但我的好朋友们应该都听说了吧?这是本人心情不好的缘由...要追根究底就是它(也可说是某某某 guai lan)惹的祸,心情超烂的...甚至到了今天,这个问题还是咬着我不放,真讨厌!!!!!! RAHHH. DX

星期五还好,有课外活动,自由多了.而且,自从病了以后就再也没有好好运动过,这下子一口气运动了整三个小时,爽啊! xD 后来和 YIJUNG,KAIJIE,ARTURO 一起回家.回到家简直累得半条命,又开始郁闷,不想读书...

星期六就和星期四一样,整天待在家,又没心情读书,差点闷死了... D:

星期天下去 Clementi 帮忙 Project Sunshine 的 National Day Carnival. 其实也说不上是帮了忙,比较多是去支持他们吧...再加上受不了被捆在家里,真想出去散散心呢...Carnival 规模不算大,但可看出主办者的用心.虽然赚的钱不多,但我相信必定能帮到有需要=帮助的居民...之后大伙儿庆祝了 Jordy 的生日!! :D 然后去打篮球,才回家...回到家以后,头脑实在清醒多了,效率也提高了很多! :D

今天去做 AAF.我觉得自己也真是的,考试期间还那么有空的感觉,竟还有时间做 CIP...不是太有信心,就是根本不管.而大多可能性应该是后者吧...哼,本小姐就是心情不好,怎么样?(哎呀,我的品德是一天比一天差了 >.<)但是,唯一令人高兴的是,那女孩确实进步了不少...哈哈,这就是名符其实的教导有方! :D

一次又一次地受伤,我还是会爬起来,变得更坚强的.

2009-08-01T21:48:00.002+08:00

Cant decide if I like Gee or Genie more lol. I wonder why ky doesnt like SNSD...

2009-08-01T01:01:00.002+08:00

Damn cool. But then I thought the head-between-leg thing during the dance break was quite obscene... 0.0

2009-07-26T20:55:00.002+08:00

TAG REPLIES!
sharon: Good! Must read all my posts..
pb: Lol u interested in him ah. 0.0
rebecca: Thanks, I will. I am strong!
yeehueh: Ya! :D
yijung: I like CL!
Bian: It's only because my chi sucks thats why I post in chi... >.<
yunxin: HELLO MEIMEI! YAY Yunho is cute!!! :D And yes of course, lets go out mug when we have time!

St John 的回忆

2009-07-26T20:43:00.002+08:00

一转眼,已经四年了.当我把职位交出,仿佛同时交出了我生命的一部分.正所谓天下无不散之宴席,我想,是时候放手了.本人在此就简述一下四年以来经历的酸甜苦辣吧.

中一

说真的,当时还不习惯每次被骂,开始时实在有一股想退出的冲动...唯一让我留下的原因可能是那份醇厚的友情吧.一起被罚,一起努力,一起同甘共苦...最终,大概六七月期间,我作出了勇敢的决定 -- 退出田径队,专注于 SJAB.虽然后来还是会想念田径,但我从不后悔选择 SJAB.因为,我在 NYSJ 所学到的,不可能从任何其它方面学到.

特别想确切地提起几个令人难忘地时刻(按照时间顺序)：
♥ 第一次被指名被骂.还记得当时的感受呢!害怕想哭(却不能哭);不甘愿被骂(因为不知道为什么被骂);羡慕学姐们(觉得她们 bang 很大声,希望自己有朝一日能像她们一样);使劲全力地喊(哈哈).
♥ June Camp'06!DYNAMITE!我记得我忘记带 spec hooks, 整个 camp 都没有带眼镜,三天里眼前都是一片模糊!我也记得 Ma'am 给我的巧克力!!她说:"There is only one best cadet, but I wish to point out a few other individuals to recognise their efforts." 那 dark chocolate 吃在口里虽苦,却甜在心里：D
♥ 一起做伏地挺身(clear punishments).我们是强的!!!一次过能做几百下哦! :D 大家互相鼓励...而且,做完自己的,还陪 squadmates 一起做她们的!团结就是力量! :DDD

中二
那时候 Vivo 才刚开!这是 Cross Country’07 之后:

圣诞派对：

Cookie theory 时期!我们常常为自己逊色地表现感到惭愧...因为我们开始明白 NCOs 的用心良苦,所以大家都特别努力! :D

难忘(按照时间顺序)：
♥ June Camp'07!SPONGEBOB!又是一段美好的回忆...从 Ma’am Hui Ming 身上学到许多…

♥ Comp trial.哇...我们真的把 first aid manual 背得滚瓜烂熟!Pon 了很多 post-EOY 活动,一起背,互相考...当进了 comp team, 那种满足感确实难以形容. :D
♥ Twin!中二那年也是我和 Sharon 长得很像的时期...很多人都把我们俩弄错...也可能因为这样,后来我和她就非常亲近. :D Quote Sharon 的信, "Hmm.. I rmb the first look-alike photo we took in sec 1. 4th level. Our back view! tsk. That time our hair looked alike. ... Then sec 2 we took our orange lsc legendary photo. Every year there's a nice photo. We must take neos this year!! ... And all the times people said we looked alike. Squadmates, seniors, juniors, the open house time. and there was once at the suntec food court! The woman asked if we were 姐妹. (: Yeah we are luh. We said nxt time we'd say we are. but no one said le. maybe cos we nvr go out! & never do open house duty tgt. TSK!" 后来好像就真的很少人说我们相像了...而且,我们还没有拍 neos!!! Tsk.

中三
我的人生落入谷低,还好有你们,不然我不可能熬到今天.

♥ June Camp'08! SKITTLES!第一次没参与 Topo…而且很多时候都只有我一个人,有好几次我甚至想过要放弃…但之后当然也变得更坚强!

♥ 最难忘的当然是 NYNC'08! <3 最艰苦的日子...大家一起疯,笑与哭,都一起熬过了...
Number 5s! :D

NYNC’060708! <3

NYNC’0708!

训练:

礼物!

Boots! 每次 polish boots 都会被父母骂! “又擦鞋!你这么有空不会去多读点书呀!擦了也没用,又不能救人…” 0.0

训练必备:

Ma’ams 的鼓励!

Teammates 的信!

Quotes:
Sharon: “Comp team 之间没有隔夜仇 and deep down we still love each other :D And I’ll always be there for you when you need me, okay! So don’t feel lonely or that you’re alone. AND you still have nombor dua, tiga, empat too! And lots of other people!! (:”
“And now thinking back I dunno how we survived. But thinking forward, I don’t know how we’ll survive WITHOUT training. D:”
“FAC NATIONALS. 130708. We can do it! No stress & we’ll be fine. Mm 不要担心, if you’re 担心-ing xD But by the time you read this, it’ll all be over anw. & We would have WON! (: In one way or another. Lasting through tgt is winning. Letting __ (Confidential) is winning too! :D Heh. We’ll 加油 tgt for everything! NATS and the days after nats. (:”
我读这封信是边读边哭,超感人!
Sin Ying: “YOU’VE BEEN A GREAT NO.5! Sure, we’ve complained about your command and timing many a times, and we always seem to suck when you’re taking over someone… but comp team will never be complete without you there!”
YAY :D
Geng Yu: “这五个月来,走的路很辛苦;但是要一起撑下去okay? DIONG HUI YEE! 以后要加油! (:”
“Nats comes… & goes. But we won’t! Because our journey doesn’t end here.”
Yes!
Shao Ting: “I <3 you forever (:”
HAHAHAHA.

奖杯!!! :DDD

♥ Prize presentation:努力的成果.

♥ Farewell/ Squad chalet.新的职位,新的责任…很舍不得 ex-NCOs! (现在是 exex)
ROD’08!

Chalet recee!

Mahjong! xD

The nice sunrise (:

The puppets we made:

And bookmarks:

I really like this photo. ^^

NYSJAB <3

中四/ NCOship

♥ 大扫除.原来 St John room 很乱!!!

♥ 惩罚.很痛!!! (看我的表情 0.0)

♥ June Camp’09!真的费尽心思策划了很久很久,到最后却只能实行一天…但是还是吸取了宝贵地经验! :D

♥ POP.美好的了结.

NYSJAB’09

Training department’0910!

Exco’0910!

Training & Admin heads 0910!

Our successor!

(其实还有很多很多照片,放不完…)

一切都似乎昨天才发生,还那么地清晰、真实.但十年后,我还会记得这些吗?我也不知道...只知道现在只想紧紧地抓着这段回忆...

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

2009-07-24T01:23:00.008+08:00

很迟了,但我睡不着...脑子里太多太多思绪,特别是SJAB...明天再说那个吧...现在, PICSPAM. :D

Firstly, my dearest YUNHO. <3

FACILS! <33

More misses...

Random
Yellow caterpillar!
<3
LUCY xD
Yun Xin's drawing on my leg (WHY DOES IT LOOK SO TANNED 0.0)

Lastly,
卞导:
欢乐趣，离别苦，就中更有痴儿女。君应有语，渺万里层云，只影向谁去…
“你知道我在等你吗？”
微微的风儿悄悄地拂过我的脸，不经意地带走了我眼角的晶莹。我不在意，只因我愿意相信，这一切还不是梦。我站在天桥上，看颤抖着的月光缓缓凝结，揉成了一条银河。只感到周围都是星烁，都是灿烂，可唯独我仍在等待发光发亮的刹那。这座桥很特别，放眼望去一座红白相间大楼温婉地坐落在一边，回首一望一栋庄严沧桑的钟楼守望一方。而这桥紧紧地联系着两边，是命运的会聚，缘分的渠纽。
“在这里你我第一次见面…你还记得吗？”
风还在吹，月光依然灿烂，我的泪水却已散成了一片迷雾。记忆支离碎片，过往如浪花拍打着弱小的心灵。迷茫中，似乎一个熟悉的身影从桥的另一边出现。但实在太模糊，伸出手，我勉强地靠近那身影，好想看清楚，好想再看一次…他的脸…

凄惨中带美...果然不愧是卞导!

到了最后,还在想SJ.有好多好多话想说,但又似乎说不出...还是等到明天吧... ):

收拾房间,收拾回忆...

2009-07-24T00:13:00.006+08:00

SARAH <3
Hmm.
记得小学时,和表姐通信!
上海 <3
Old ezlinks!
Postcards collection.
Class photos!
Random photos.

我怀念从前.

2009-07-20T18:29:00.004+08:00

怎么说,我也是人.
而人总是会有感情的.
要我不难过,我办不到.
大胆地选择了这一条路...我们错了吗?
在我面前,你装作没事.
我却看穿你的面具,看到你内心的痛.
我似乎痛得麻木了.
已碎过的心,再次得承受一切.
我得再次摆出一副没事的样子.
真的很痛...
我又进入了暴饮暴食的地步,企图忘记...
我不是很坚强的吗?
我想,也是时候收拾好心情了,反正一直想也于事无补...
日子还是得照样过...
但愿时间能够冲淡一切吧...

当然,我得感谢一群守护在我身旁的朋友:
LUCHANG, YUNXIN, DRP, DARREN, SHAOTING, JIEHONG, WEIDONG, KWANGYU, KAIJIE, CHENXU, BIANHE, REBECCA.
谢谢你们听我诉苦,哄我开心.

我行的,加油!!!

2009-07-18T23:20:00.003+08:00

不能说的秘密
冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見

最美的不是下雨天
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐
回憶的畫面
在蕩著秋千夢開始不甜

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠
又何必去改變你說過的誓言
你用你的指尖指示我說再見
想象你在身邊在完全失去之前

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠
或許命運的簽只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現這幸福的碎片
要我怎麼撿

最长的电影
我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着

冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的圈
圈起了谁改变

如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得

记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭

朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的圈
圈起了谁改变

如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得

记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得

记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

蒲公英的约定
小學籬芭旁的蒲公英　
是記憶裏有味道的風景
午睡操場傳來蟬的聲音　
多少年後也還是很好聽

將願望折紙飛機寄成信　
因為我們等不到那流星
認真投決定命運的硬幣　
卻不知道到底能去哪里

一起長大的約定　那樣清晰　打過勾的我相信
說好要一起旅行　是你如今　唯一堅持的任性

在走廊上罰站打手心　
我們卻注意窗邊的蜻蜓
我去到哪裏你都跟很緊　
很多的夢在等待著進行

一起長大的約定　那樣清晰　打過勾的我相信
說好要一起旅行　是你如今　唯一堅持的任性

一起長大的約定　那樣真心　與你聊不完的曾經
而我已經分不清　你是友情　還是錯過的愛情

1분 1초 (1 Minute 1 Second)
I can’t let go.
I can‘t let go.
어딜 봐도 네 모습이 보이고,
eodil bwado ne moseubi boigo,
무너지는 내 마음 숨길 수가 없어. baby, 단 1분 1초도.
muneojineun nae maeum sumgil suga eobseo. baby, dan illbun illchodo.

I can’t let go.
I can‘t let go.
어딜 가도 네 목소리 들리고,
eodil gado ne moksori deulligo,
부서지는 심장… 숨 쉴 수가 없어. baby, 단 1분 1초도.
buseojineun simjang… sum swil suga eobseo. baby, dan illbun illchodo.

시간이 멈추고 심장이 멈춰도.
sigani meomchugo simjangi meomchwodo.
한 순간도, 단 1분 1초도.
han sungando, dan illbun illchodo.

그 날 넌 머리가 맘에 안 들고 눈이 부었다고 다시 잠들고,
geu nal neon meoriga mame an deulgo nuni bueotdago dasi jamdeulgo,
난 외투를 벗으며 말없이 삐치고, 전화기를 들어 밥을 시키고.
nan oetureul beoseumyeo mareobsi ppichigo, jeonhwagireul deureo babeul sikigo.
커튼을 치고, 몇 시간이 지났는지도 모르고 watching DVDs.
keoteuneul chigo, myeot sigani jinanneunjido moreugo watching DVDs.
just you and me. 어깨에 기댄 너의 숨소리.
just you and me. eokkaee gidaen neoui sumsori.
난 나가지 않기를 잘했다고 생각했지.
nan nagaji ankireul jalhaetdago saenggakhaetji.

우습게도 이런 기억들이 아직도 날 괴롭힌다.
useupgedo ireon gieokdeuri ajikdo nal goerophinda.
문득 네가 했던 농담들이 기억나고 무너진다.
mundeuk nega haetdeon nongdamdeuri gieongnago muneojinda.
아무것도 아닌 순간들이 오늘도 날 뒤엎는다.
amugeotdo anin sungandeuri oneuldo nal dwieopneunda.
문득 네가 짓던 표정들이 기억나고 부서진다.
mundeuk nega jitdeon pyojeongdeuri gieongnago buseojinda.

그 어딜 가도 창가 옆 모퉁이 구석 자리에,
geu eodil gado changga yeop motungi guseok jarie,
앉을 때 손을 포개놓지 왼쪽 다리에,
anjeul ttae soneul pogaenochi oenjjok darie,
피곤해 하품할 때는 닦은 눈물을 보곤 해.
pigonhae hapumhal ttaeneun dakkeun nunmureul bogon hae.
그리곤 바보처럼 웃어, 양 볼에 보조개.
geurigon babocheoreom useo, yang bore bojogae.
물을 마실 때는 항상 세워둔 새끼손가락.
mureul masil ttaeneun hangsang sewodun saekkisongarak.
눈이 부셨어, 윤기 나던 검은 머리카락.
nuni busyeosseo, yungi nadeon geomeun meorikarak.
서툰 젓가락질조차 매력이라 말했어.
seotun jeotgarakjiljocha maeryeogira malhaesseo.
부르튼 입술도 난 영원하길 바랬어.
bureuteun ipsuldo nan yeongwonhagil baraesseo.

this is love.
this is love.
그 사소했던 기억이 마음을 뒤섞고, 나를 뒤엎고, 눈물은 끝이 없지.
geu sasohaetdeon gieogi maeumeul dwiseokkgo, nareul dwieopgo, nunmureun kkeuchi eobtji.
see, 사랑은 폭풍도 흔들지 못하는 마음을 몰아치는 빗물 한 방울.
see, sarangeun pokpungdo heundeulji motaneun maeumeul morachineun bitmul han bangul.
the little memories.
the little memories.
술잔처럼 비워진 투명해진 우리의 작은 추억들.
suljancheoreom biwojin tumyeonghaejin uriui jageun chueokdeul.
돌이키려 돌아봐도,
dorikiryeo dorabwado,
다신 만들 수 없는 그대와의 기억.
dasin mandeul su eomneun geudaewaui gieok.
어젯밤 꿈처럼 선명한데. 날 떠났네…
eojetbam kkumcheoreom seonmyeonghande. nal tteonanne…

한 순간도, 단 1분 1초도.
han sungando, dan illbun illchodo.
I can’t let go…
I can‘t let go…

I can’t let go. 한 순간도.
I can‘t let go. han sungando.
숨죽인 작은 속삭임도, 달콤한 둘만의 비밀도.
sumjugin jageun soksagimdo, dalkomhan dulmanui bimildo.

아름다웠던 만큼 슬펐던 그대와 나.
areumdawotdeon mankeum seulpeotdeon geudaewa na.
내 눈물이 그대에게도 기억될 수 있을까?
nae nunmuri geudaeegedo gieokdoel su isseulkka?

I can’t let go. 한 순간도.
I can‘t let go. han sungando.
둘만의 버릇과 습관도, 그 아름다웠던 순간도.
dulmanui beoreutgwa seupgwando, geu areumdawotdeon sungando.

아직 한 순간도, 단 1분 1초도.
ajik han sungando, dan illbun illchodo.

되돌릴 수가 없어, 단 1분 1초도
doedollil suga eobseo, dan illbun illchodo

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TRANSLATION:

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

You said you were having a bad hair day
You said your eyes were puffy, and fell back asleep
Sulking, I silently took off my jacket,
Picked up the phone and ordered take out
Closed the curtain, and without knowing how many hours passed
Watching DVD’s
(Just you and me)
The sound of your breath as you leaned against my shoulder
I thought that it was a good thing we didn’t go out

Ridiculously these thoughts still torment me
I unexpectedly remember the jokes that you made and I fall apart
Moments that are really no big deal upset me
I suddenly remember the faces that you used to make and I break apart

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
(Even if time stops, my heart stops)
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

No matter where you went, at the bar right at the corner
When you sat in your little corner
You laid your hands on top of each other on your left leg
When you were tired and yawned, you kept the tears you wiped away
And you would smile like an idiot, showing the dimples in your two cheeks
Whenever you drank water
The pinky that you raised
The glossy black hair that could blind
I thought your clumsy chopstick skills were charming
Your full lips, I hoped it would be forever

This is lov to the e
This autobiographical memory twists my heart
Flips me upside down, with never ending tears
See love could shake a hurricane
The raindrops that blow against my feelings, one drop
The little memories
Like how this glass of alcohol becomes empty, our small memories became transparent
Even though I try to bring it back
The memories of us I can never make it again
Like yesterday night’s dream it’s so clear, but it’s gone
(damn)

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
(Even if time stops, my heart stops)
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
I can’t let go

I can’t let go
(The whisper that takes my breath away)
For one moment
(Our sweet secrets)
For us who is as sad as our love was beautiful
(Can my tears still remember you?)

I can’t let go
(Our quirks and habits)
For one moment
(The beautiful moments)
Still for one moment
For one minute, one second

We can’t go back
(For one minute, one second)

2009-07-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

Current song addictionssss! <3

I shall update abt this week and my bronchitis and the prayer meeting thing over the weekends, now I feel like sleeping... Bye!

2009-07-13T01:17:00.005+08:00

A few sudden thoughts before going to sleep:
1. I feel kinda detached from church, everyone tells me they havent been seeing me. ):
2. Do I really frown a lot? No, I am not fierce!!
3. My throat really hurts bad, I think I'm gonna see the doctor again soon. ):
4. I'm owing lots of ppl birthdya presents. :/
5. Anyone wants to mug with me on Tues? (:
6. Everyone JIAYOU for projects day! (:
7. I'm missing NYNC'08... <3
8. God speaks to me a lot these few days. :D
9. I havent been catching up with lots of ppl yeah?
10. I am going to sleep now. Bye world.